Real name: Alex
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Member since: August 18, 2011
Twentysomething English Lit. graduate, training to be an accountant while figuring out what she wants to be when she grows up.
4/7/2012 - to keep things reasonably tidy around here, I've decided to group my super-short canon-based stories into one collection, The Lost Scrolls. Anything over 500 words, or that fits specifically into one of my 'verses, will be given its own story link.
Rated: Mature [Reviews - 107]
And they would die. Yet as Fëanor prophesied, their deeds would "be a matter of song until the last days of Arda."
The Arc of Fire, the blazing thread of forbidden love and desire which began with Fëanor and Fingolfin spanned three generations and thousands of years. I Will Lead and Thou Shalt Follow told of the birth of that passion. This story continues the Arc, telling of the ultimately doomed love between Fingon and Maedhros, Fingon's son Gil-galad and Tindómion, son of Maglor, in an Arda where the love of one's own gender was seen as an offense in the eyes of the the Valar – and punished by banishment into the Everlasting Dark.
"I, Tindómion Maglorion do so swear, sire." His voice shook a little. "My fealty and all my service is thine, Gil-galad of House Fingolfin. From now until the day of my death."
"Or mine," said Gil-galad, quite softly.
Characters: Aredhel, Caranthir, Ecthelion, Elrond, Erestor, Fingolfin, Fingon, Gil-galad, Glorfindel, Gothmog, Maglor, Melkor/Morgoth, OFC, OMC, Orc, Sauron
Content: Angst, AU, Character Death, Drama, Erotica, Incest, Rape/Non-con, Slash
Series: Magnificat Of The Damned
Chapters: 49 | Completed: Yes | Word count: 177801 | Read count: 129241
Published: July 01, 2011 | Updated: July 04, 2011
Date: July 19, 2012 Title: Chapter 4: Chapter 4 ~ A Victory And A Warning ~
This is truly fantastic :) there's such a glowing sense of rightness about this chapter - a glimpse of how things might have been. Your Maedhros and Fingon are wonderful; it's a pleasure to finally read more of them, and to see Maglor's first meeting with Fanari. But even in a relatively happy chapter you bring out the complexity of the Noldor - I liked this little bit of foreshadowing:
they sought knowledge, always and sometimes cared little how it was got.
And we all know what that attitude led to later on!! ;)
When I read canon now, I can completely imagine the erotic games going on in the blanks that JRRT left. I don't think it's an unreasonable extrapolation, particularly not for the Noldor, who are so wild and passionate anyway - reading it with an English student's eye, the subtext is definitely there, particularly for Maedhros/Fingon (yeah, they're kind of my shipping obsession at the moment...).
Author's Response: there's such a glowing sense of rightness about this chapter - a glimpse of how things might have been.
Aww, wow! Thank-you. I must have managed to shoehorn in something less anguished than ususal XD. Of course there must have been times in the Long peace when there was hope and laughter.
I don't think it's an unreasonable extrapolation, particularly not for the Noldor, who are so wild and passionate anyway
It was definitely always there for me, so I don't think it is possible to pronounce that people should read Tolkien's works in one way, and not in this one. I certainly wasn't influenced by any-one back in pre-internet times into filling in the blanks, I just *saw* it.
Oh, are you going to write any Maedhros/Fingon, do you think?
Date: July 19, 2012 Title: Chapter 5: Chapter 5 ~ A Darker Malice ~
It's almost hard to read this, knowing what's in store for them all. I'm not surprised you were clinging on to Maglor and Tind
Date: July 19, 2012 Title: Chapter 8: Chapter 8 ~ The Dark Seed ~
Ah, Maeglin...I really must write him sometime, he does niggle at me...
After Dagor Nirnaeth Arnoediad, and Fingon's death
Poor Maedhros :(
This is a terrific tale - it's wonderful to see all the little corners of the Silm explored and expanded on and enlightened, all melded with your own fantastic 'verse. I'm particularly enjoying seeing a younger Glorfindel; his character seems much less clear cut at this stage, and much more influenced by you-know-who!
Author's Response: I would love to see you write Maeglin, -- and Maedhros and Fingon :)
Remembering this story, there are a lot of corners still unexplored, but I am beginning to think I do that deliberately so there is something to um..still explore.
Glorfindel is younger here, yes, and lacking the weight (I suppose)of his death and re-birth. I also think in Gondolin being pretty cut off from the outside world by choice, that it was a kind of bubble.
Thank-you for another review, Narya!
Date: July 19, 2012 Title: Chapter 1: Chapter 1 ~ Beautiful, Beloved Betrayer ~
Oh, are you going to write any Maedhros/Fingon, do you think?
Only just saw that question! I might...eventually. My bunny hutch is awfully crowded at the moment, I'm sure you know how it is ;)
Date: July 20, 2012 Title: Chapter 12: Chapter 12 ~ Ereinion ~
This is unfolding so beautifully :) the relationship between Fingon, Gil-galad and Maedhros is wonderful, and little Gil is adorable. I love the way you write him, so solemn and sad, and the way you weave in his future. It makes it both heartbreaking and hopeful - we all know what happens on the slopes of Mount Doom, but we know what comes after that too (in your 'verse, at least!) and it stops it from being too unbearable.
Interesting that you mention Fingon wishing he could have taken Fanari as a wife - I feel like she'd have understood what he needed from Maedhros, and that they might have been able to work something out that would not hurt everyone concerned. Still, she was destined for something else! ;)
Author's Response: It makes it both heartbreaking and hopeful - we all know what happens on the slopes of Mount Doom, but we know what comes after that too (in your 'verse, at least!) and it stops it from being too unbearable.
I was so sad thinking of their futures when I wrote this, but I think writing Gil-galad as a small child made me even more protective of him and I couldn't bear what was going to happen. It had to be written and everything come full circle to 'begin' again in Magnificat, but oh dear, this whole story did upset me to write :(
Re: Fanari. I think Fingon was thinking how much easier it would be to marry some-one who understood, poor man, but while I do know it would have been better for him, I am not sure it would be at all fair on any woman.
I write of arranged marriages because sometimes I think it would have been necessary among the Elves, even though it's not canon, and yes, Maedhros and Fingon are canon to me, as is Gil-galad being Fingon's son, so an arranged marriage was the only way I could write it. But even if you really liked some-one, I think it would be extremely hard to be the woman. Fanari couldn't be, anyway, because her life was already mapped when I wrote this, as you say :) And it was already destined that she bear Tind
Date: July 20, 2012 Title: Chapter 13: Chapter 13 ~ Before Darkness Falls ~
I will never know what it feels like again for soul and body to flame together, out of pure desire...
Aw! But he will - we know these things ;)
His younger brother threw him a wink, straight-faced.
''Is Fingon not High Prince? Perhaps he should journey back with us so he may take a report to the King. I will make him welcome at Helevorn.''
I meant to say in my last review that I really like your Caranthir. Fandom seems to give him short shrift, for the most part - of the seven brothers he seems to get the least screen time, and when he does appear he doesn't seem too interestin. I kind of get it - canon suggests that Maedhros and Maglor are noble but misguided, and that Celegorm and Curufin are the classic bad boys. The twins get plenty of attention because people like writing twins for various reasons (not knocking it!) and Caranthir seems to end up getting cast in the boring, stolid background role. Your Caranthir, though, is funny, conflicted and sharp; another wonderful character for me to love!
Author's Response: Aw! But he will - we know these things ;)
Oh yes - OMG, I was staring at that for a minute thinking, 'Who? What? Where?' Terrible when you forget what you've written.
Some-one else mentioned to me about Caranthir not getting any screen-time. Not that he has had much in Magnificat yet, but he's read to, since I've already written him. Yes, I am not sure why he is overlooked, as he is just as interesting as any of the others. I do know when I wrote this I did have the idea that he was close to Maedhros and Maglor especially.
Thank-you, Narya :)
Date: August 15, 2012 Title: Chapter 14: Chapter 14 ~ That Moonless Night In Winter ~
Wow. That was a hell of a scene for me to pick this back up with! I feel exhausted after reading that; you paint their attacks and endurance and despair so vividly. And I loved the way you ended the chapter - poignant and sad, but exactly right.
Author's Response: I am sorry, Narya, I am a bit short on peaceful scenes! :) but thank-you for picking this up again, and for your lovely comment!
Date: August 15, 2012 Title: Chapter 16: Chapter 16 ~ Suffer The Little Children ~
As he cast a quick glance back, the candle-light caught one brief flash of great eyes, amethyst colored, and wide with nerves,
Oh hai, Van :P
It was fascinating to get a glimpse into their early childhood - and strange too to see Van so innocent. I'm so used to his games and calculations that his childish wonder at the stars is even more poignant.
Author's Response: and strange too to see Van so innocent. I'm so used to his games and calculations that his childish wonder at the stars is even more poignant.
I did find it quite different to write about him as so young, but interesting too. Every-one starts off young :(
Date: August 17, 2012 Title: Chapter 19: Chapter 19 ~ Leaves Before The Wind ~
This is all just so wonderfully done. The grief they all feel at the loss of Fingon is shattering, and the way you write it is so immersive. I couldn't help but cry for Maedhros, having to go on without him. The sense of ever-decreasing hope is like a net closing in on them all, and even though I know they all get another chance in your 'verse, I can't help grieving for the "canon versions" of these characters, and at the tragedy of the whole thing.
Author's Response: I can't help grieving for the "canon versions" of these characters, and at the tragedy of the whole thing.
I know what you mean; imagining their doom reading the Silm over and over was what made me write the Noldor's return. I just couldn't bear it.
Thank-you so much for your kind review :)
Date: August 17, 2012 Title: Chapter 23: Chapter 23 ~ Begotten In Blood ~
Your Gil-galad is a fantastic character - despite all the pain and horror surrounding him, I've really enjoyed reading about him as he grows. Astonishing that he's so loving and forgiving, after everything. And that picture of Fanari is uncanny; it's so like I imagined her!
Author's Response: Thank-you, Narya, as I love Gil-galad very much. I'd never read anything of him but as I wrote he became what he is in the book. I don't know that I'd be that 'kind' myself, but I do think he was honourable and did carry the huge weight of his heritage; I wonder how that would affect him, knowing all the previous High King's of the Noldor died. :(
Date: August 31, 2012 Title: Chapter 35: Chapter 35 ~ Betrayal Would Taste Of Wine ~
God, it's good to be back here...I've missed this story, I meant to print it out and read it in hard copy while I was without internet, but the chaos of moving caught up to me and I didn't get round to it :(
It's great to see this little friendship group developing in Lindon - Gil, Istelion, Elrond, Glorfindel. Glorfindel seems like a big brother to them all :) it's hinted at in the main Dark Prince series but I'm enjoying seeing it "first hand" as it were, and it adds a lot of colour to later events. Rosriel is as nasty as I remember her from your other works, and Annatar gives me the shivers (though at the moment I can't help thinking of that Fifty Shades of Noldor thing you posted and wondering if there's another reason for Lintalome's discomfort!!)
"How couldst thou not tell me?"
He was too close. They were too alone. Tind
Date: August 31, 2012 Title: Chapter 36: Chapter 36 ~ One Ring For The Elven-king ~
The fire spoke its ancient language in the silence which fell.
Every so often in your work, there's a sentence or a phrase or a metaphor that leaps out at me and makes me heart do a double-bound because it's so perfect. This is one of those moments.
Like a shameful secret, the gemmed ring lay in a pack on the sumpter pony.
He saw himself as High King and Gil-galad as his pleasure slave...tying Rosriel's hands to a cart which pulled her through the wide ways of Mithlond as people jeered and pelted her with stones...
Hmmm...this tickles the dark part of my muse! An AU of your AU...? No - down, bunny! Back in the hutch!
Ah, thank goodness for Glorfindel :) the climactic passage was brilliant - so intense! I've said it before but I'd love to see a fan film of your work; it cries out for it ;)
Author's Response: there's a sentence or a phrase or a metaphor that leaps out at me and makes me heart do a double-bound because it's so perfect
Wow, thank-you. I don't remember writing it, but I have found that if I have had a nap or am tired I write things that people comment on, and anything I feel I work hard at does not get the same reaction, so I have to try and work out how to write when asleep, I think! :D But I am glad you like it.
Oh, if that part tickles your dark muse, go ahead and use it some time. It would actually make an interesting AU - a pretty dark one!
I could almost see Tind
Date: September 02, 2012 Title: Chapter 42: Chapter 42 ~ The Fire Before The Sun And Moon ~
Could I have influenced him, added my voice to Maedhros, had the ships sent back for Fingolfin and his host? And what might have come to pass had all the Noldor set foot on Endor under one mighty King?"
Oh, the AU possibilities...
It's fascinating to see the Glorfindel/F
Date: September 02, 2012 Title: Chapter 44: Chapter 44 ~ Bonds Of Fire, Chains Of Darkness ~
Mmm :D so good to finally read this scene! Just as I imagined it too ;) and knowing what I know, I find all the parallels between Van and F
Date: September 02, 2012 Title: Chapter 46: Chapter 46 ~ Sun Storm And Night ~
He heard the teasing sound of the thrall blowing a kiss at him as he left.
I love the wild, fey passion of the characters in your stories, and I'm enjoying the slower pace of this one - more time for smouldering, so to speak, which is so entertaining to read ;) still, things are coming to a climax (no pun intended) - I feel that tissues may be needed (again, no pun intended - sorry!!!!!!!!).
Author's Response: I agree on the slower pace: the Magnificat stories are much slower-paced too, as I wanted to explore the characters more in their new lives. Not that it is relaxing to write, but it gives me a sense of more satisfaction, I think :)
Date: September 02, 2012 Title: Chapter 47: Chapter 47 ~ Solstice Fire ~
But Ages of belief and the rites associated with them had slowly gouged themselves into the fabric of Arda, as dripping water wears a hollow in stone, creating its own reality.
Ooh. What a wonderful way of describing how superstitions and beliefs engrain themselves into the fabric of a world.
The solstice celebrations are gorgeously written - really sensual and primal and just perfect!
Author's Response: describing how superstitions and beliefs engrain themselves into the fabric of a world.
I am so pleased that works for you - and I do think it is like that with beliefs, a slow and persistent 'wearing' into the minds of people.
I liked writing the Solstice, it was a precursor to the wilder rites I explore in Magnificat :)
Date: September 02, 2012 Title: Chapter 48: Chapter 48 ~ When Darkness Falls ~
I touched him, all of him, and he responded, eager as any human trull.
Ach, damn that pesky Maia! Poor Gil :(
Date: September 02, 2012 Title: Chapter 49: Chapter 49 ~ The Beginning Of Night And The End Of The Light ~
Yep. Tears. Tissues definitely required :( :( :(
This was just wonderful, though - beautifully, gorgeously written. I loved the intricacy of the relationships you weave, and the sense of tragedy about the whole thing - it felt like the end of Lear or R&J, only worse, because at least they end with hope that things might be better. Your deus ex comes charging down and makes it plain to everyone just how terrible it all is :(
I'd like to see you write about the Valar as you depict them - I know from the stories what you think of them, but I'd like to get inside their heads, as it were. I was definitely with Istelion, wanting to strike a blow for justice, and I'd love to know where they got their ideas in the first place. They don't seem to have come from Eru...?
Anyway, on to Magnificat! :D (there, something to be happy about - there's more to read).
Author's Response: This was just wonderful, though - beautifully, gorgeously written. I loved the intricacy of the relationships you weave, and the sense of tragedy about the whole thing -
Oh, thank-you so much, Narya, although I only follow the Silmarillion which just seems to get worse and worse :(
I think I will write the Valar in the last story, (I took it down because I may - no, will - rewrite parts, and didn't want to be completely tied to certain things if anything happens in the ongoing series to change it) but I find them so damn boring and/or reprehensible (apart from Orom
Rated: Mature [Reviews - 234]
The Sons of Thunder meet a storm in the son of Thranduil, one of violence and desire. Warning for this chapter. Explicit sex and undercurrent of violence
Chapters: 46 | Completed: Yes | Word count: 315298 | Read count: 102820
Published: July 02, 2011 | Updated: January 20, 2013
Date: April 17, 2012 Title: Chapter 1: Chapter 1
Ah, there are stories that take place before this one...I'm reading completely out of order! Whoops. I'm enjoying myself though, I like the subtle shifts in dynamic between your characters and the little details like Legolas sorting through feathers for his arrows.
I dont think it matters much to be honest except this is better and much darker so the previous one might be a disappointment. Also, that one is between Eomer and Legolas and there are spin off tales like Rohan's Gold. But hey, I'm not complaining- you go ahead and do whatever you lile! I'm just gald to ehar from you!
Date: April 18, 2012 Title: Chapter 2: Chapter 2
The dream was still vivid and immediate, the stench, the horror still wildly real. He could almost feel the darkness ooze around him, the torchlight flickering ahead on the dank walls, hear the stifled scream…Eyes wide he sat up, grasping for his knife, staring, hair stuck to his skin …Only gradually, his brother's soft presence calmed him, his hand lightly resting on Elrohir's shoulder and the warmth of his brother's touch spread down his arm…
I like the way you build tension here, and then mitigate it with Elladan's soothing presence. I'm a sucker for sibling relations though; I love sib-based stories!
Is Elrohir dreaming of finding Celebrian after her capture by the orcs?
On a lighter note..."Elrodan" and "Smaug's balls!"...I laughed out loud :)
Hi again Narya- nice of you to drop a review- I love hearing what people think. Keep reading and you'll find out what's been going on but in short, yes, he is dreaming about when they found Celebrian. Glad Gimli made you laugh- he is so easy to write!
Date: April 20, 2012 Title: Chapter 3: Chapter 3 The Black Ships
She seemed to have shrunk and the unkind wind buffeted her small frame. She huddled close to the wall as she was hurried away from him and he felt a knife pierce him as she disappeared. She did not even turn for one last look at her child.
Oh, this is so sad. Poor Elrohir. Beautifully written though :)
I really liked the song of the Dead too; it reminded me of one of the Old English elegies, like The Wanderer or The Ruin. I especially liked this line:
Steel rusts, crumbles, light fades, darkness only
This definitely has a gnomic, Anglo-Saxon wisdom poem kind of vibe.
Lovely chapter; really enjoyed it, as always!
That's really interesting - that Song of the Dead was another piece that just seemed ot emerge. When I write the characters' songs I try to think about their elements= so the Rohirrim are about the open plains and high blue skies, and the Dead are close to the Rohirrim. I don't know those two poems - will look them up as that sounds so intersting.
I think these earlier chapters are better written because I had more time to write and think then, now I am so busy I struggle to find time.
Thank you for the reivews- it's lovely to get these.
Date: April 23, 2012 Title: Chapter 4: Chapter 4
Wow. I loved the wild, feral nature of the fight - intense and passionate. Totally in line with how I see the Elves ;)
That was a god chapter I admit I was pleased with this one. Early days and Elrohir was still unaware. I am so pleased you see Elves this way too- the Silm is so passionate comapred with the way they are shown in LOTR. Mirkwood elves are supposed to be to 'less wise' and I like ot play with that.
Date: April 23, 2012 Title: Chapter 5: Chapter 5
He glanced at Gimli and caught the deep look in those brown eyes and for a moment, he felt the song of the Dwarf. It brushed his mind lightly, a sensation of the deep fires of earth, and then it was gone.
Ooh. Fabulous bit of characterisation :)
Gimli looked away and let his hand smooth the horse's glossy coat. 'Things change,' he said quietly. 'This horse would not let me near him when first we met. He was all pride and arrogance I thought. And I did not want to go near him either if you recall& Until I saw him in battle and realised he is a great ally and warrior.' He glanced up at Legolas, who still had his face turned away. 'For a horse that is,' he added.
Legolas lips twitched slightly.
'He thought the same of you when first he met you,' replied Legolas, finally looking the Dwarf in the eye. 'Until he realised what a very good friend you are.'
This is lovely too, really heartwarming. I can't get enough of the friendship between your Legolas and Gimli; you write it so well! Your Elrohir is brilliant too, so complex and multidimensional.
ANother lovely review- I feel very spoilt. I love Gimli, he is such a good foil for Legolas and yet they are simialr in many ways.
Date: April 23, 2012 Title: Chapter 6: Chapter 6
Your battle scenes are incredibly evocative - I loved this bit of description:
The flesh sucked the blade, and the man's eyes glazed and dimmed.
The flesh sucking the blade made me cringe - perfectly captured!
'That one was mine,' he shouted furiously. The warrior showed his teeth in a feral grin.
'Well have that one instead!' he shouted back at Gimli. The Dwarf grunted and swept his axe behind him, taking off a surprised Orc's head.
It does do that though, doesn't it? Sort of hangs onto the blade. Yeah- Gimli so rocks!
Date: April 23, 2012 Title: Chapter 7: Chapter 7
I found quite hard to get right- hope I have. It would be good to know if this works for you.
Works for me ;)
Poor Elrohir though...
I couldn't even remember this one so had to check. Glad it works for you:)
I couldn't even remember this one so had to check. Glad it works for you:)