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Title: The Price of Memory by Encairion
Rated: Mature [Reviews - 113]
Summary:

Sequel to The Price of Duty.  The continuation of Erestor and Lindir's tale into the Second and Third Age, and the beginning of a woman's from the deep South of Middle-earth who was sold into slavery and taken North.


Category: Fiction
Characters: Aragorn, Elladan, Elrohir, Elrond, Erestor, Gimli, Glorfindel, Legolas, Lindir, Maglor, OFC, OMC, Thranduil
Content: Angst, AU, Character Death, Drama, Dubcon, Explicit Sex, Het, Rape/Non-con, Romance, Slash
Challenge: None
Series: The Price of Eternity
Chapters: 28 | Completed: Yes | Word count: 141413 | Read count: 56037

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Published: May 02, 2012 | Updated: November 21, 2015


Reviewer: FirstAmazon Signed
Date: January 15, 2020 Title: Chapter 28: Chapter 28

Again, another story I completely lost myself into. So beautiful! And, wait... a happy ending for Erestor and Lindir?? Ok, where's the trap? LOL Nah, just kidding, it was an awesome ending for these two and my heart swelled with the last paragraphs.

Beautiful and delicious to read as usual. I absolutelly LOVED seeing Glorfindel back, reborn and full of life, zero regrets, kissing boys and... wait, is that what I think it is between he and Maglor? Amazing, amazing, moving on to the next story because I just can't stop!



Reviewer: FirstAmazon Signed
Date: January 15, 2020 Title: Chapter 28: Chapter 28

Again, another story I completely lost myself into. So beautiful! And, wait... a happy ending for Erestor and Lindir?? Ok, where's the trap? LOL Nah, just kidding, it was an awesome ending for these two and my heart swelled with the last paragraphs.

Beautiful and delicious to read as usual. I absolutelly LOVED seeing Glorfindel back, reborn and full of life, zero regrets, kissing boys and... wait, is that what I think it is between he and Maglor? Amazing, amazing, moving on to the next story because I just can't stop!

Author's Response:

a happy ending for Erestor and Lindir?? Ok, where's the trap? LOL”

 

Ha!  I know what you mean!  It only took several hundred thousands words to get here lol  Erestor is one of those characters I both want to shake and cuddle at once :)  He’s incredibly blind, but blind for a reason, so I forgive him.

 

Oh yes that Glorfindel….and Maglor :wink:  I shall say no more :P



Title: The Price of Duty by Encairion
Rated: Mature [Reviews - 65]
Summary:

The story of Erestor's life in the service of the sons of Fëanor. He grew up in the shadow of the Oath, became a Kinslayer at Doriath, and struggled to survive within a blood-stained people whose pride ran as deep as the curse binding them, and the despair they denied as they fought to reclaim jewels they worshiped as their salvation and gods.


Category: Fiction
Characters: Celebrimbor, Elrond, Elros, Erestor, Eärendil, Gil-galad, Glorfindel, Irimë, Lindir, Maedhros, Maglor, OFC, OMC
Content: Angst, Character Death, Drama, Dubcon, Explicit Sex, Femmeslash, Het, Incest, Rape/Non-con, Slash
Challenge: None
Series: The Price of Eternity
Chapters: 30 | Completed: Yes | Word count: 172934 | Read count: 59107

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Published: May 04, 2012 | Updated: August 31, 2014


Reviewer: FirstAmazon Signed
Date: January 15, 2020 Title: Chapter 30: Chapter 30

Ok, so I started reading this while I still wasn't in Faerie and I actually wrote a draft on my email to send to you when I finished, so here it goes.


Who the hell is Erestor and why do I care about him so much??? I have devoured this story!

The descriptions were stunning (Maedhros the Crownless King: ouch, my heart!), I was completely transported to the story, felt every death (I cried so much with Mórivo and Thangear's), every angst, cheered with every relationship (Elros and Elrond's development, the Choice!! My god!!!), hoped Erestor stopped being thick and realized how much Lindir loves him and honestly wished this would never end.

You are a marvel, ridiculously talented, and I'm in absolute awe! The construction of your characters is so complex and interesting, the environments, the build up of tension... You OWN these characters, giving them such a thorough background, tighted up so well I don't even have words for it. And the way your view of this world is build up around Tolkien's is really incredible. It's been a long time since I read such a good story, so full of nuances, that I can say honestly there are many published, famous authors who can't do what you do.

I'm beyond words right now. Just thank you for doing it, making it public and please don't you dare ever stop writing! Please, don't deprive me of your amazing talent.

Author's Response:

Oh my gosh, this review!!!  I’m giddy with happiness!  Gods, I don’t even know what to say, I’m so happy.  I have tears in my eyes!  Every time I’m feeling down about my writing I am going to come back to this review.  It banishes all the doubts and energizes me to keep writing!  I cannot thank you enough for giving me this gift :hugs:



Title: The Price of Vengeance I by Encairion
Rated: Explicit [Reviews - 412]
Summary: Feature

Even the purest of their intentions turned to ashes in their Doomed hands.  But before their ruin came their glory. 

A novella of the House of Finwë.


Category: Fiction
Characters: Celebrimbor, Celegorm, Curufin, Eöl, Fëanor, Finduilas, Fingolfin, Fingon, Finrod, Gildor, Glorfindel, Gwindor, Idril, Irimë, Maedhros, Maeglin, Maglor, OFC, OMC, Orodreth, Tuor, Túrin
Content: Angst, AU, Character Death, Drama, Dubcon, Explicit Sex, Femmeslash, Het, Incest, Rape/Non-con, Romance, Slash
Challenge: None
Series: The Price of Eternity
Chapters: 86 | Completed: Yes | Word count: 539069 | Read count: 227362

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Published: May 14, 2012 | Updated: July 26, 2017


Reviewer: FirstAmazon Signed
Date: January 15, 2020 Title: Chapter 86: Chapter 71

Let's say I made an account here so I could make my review official. I read this series through tears. All the characters are filled with so many emotions... that scene in Mandos halls of Fingolfin's Judgment and Fëanor seeing his death had me sobbing like a baby - the way you write these two is just impressive!

And Glorfindel, man, what a character you created! His relation with Maeglin is so wonderfully constructed - as is Eöl, you've done an amazing job with his background!

I don't remember now chapter by chapter to make a more thorough review, but this series will be something I'll certainly revist in the future.

Author's Response:

Wow, thank you so much, Maria!!!  I love hearing how much you enjoyed my stories, and the best of the best is when you shared how emotionally they impacted you!  There is no higher complement for a writer than to know their story touched their reader's heart!!!

 

Fingolfin and Feanor in the Halls are one on my favorite parts in the series too, even tho it left me crying as well.  And Glorfindel and Maeglin, yes, those are my babies; it’s great to hear you liked this Eol too!  His character is one I can see interpreted a lot of ways based on cannon.  I can see him as the villain as easily as I can see him as a victim, especially when reading his story remembering Tolkien meant the Silmarillion to be an in-cannon history, and thus subject to the writer’s biases.

 

Thank you so much for reading and reviewing!  I know I’ve gotten behind on a number of things, including your story!  Just know that I’m still enjoying it tons and will review soon :)



Title: Finding his way through moonlight by ziggy
Rated: Mature [Reviews - 16]
Summary:

Glrofindel dreams of the Seige of Barad-dûr and Thranduil.

Slash. Glorfindel/Thranduil.


Category: Fiction
Characters: Thranduil
Content: None
Challenge: None
Series: None
Chapters: 1 | Completed: Yes | Word count: 1387 | Read count: 2011

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Published: October 28, 2014 | Updated: October 28, 2014


Reviewer: FirstAmazon Signed
Date: March 30, 2020 Title: Chapter 1: Chapter 1

Ok, there you go, another love I never knew I needed! This dripped on melancholy, and it was so beautiful! I was never much convinced about Glorfindel's infatuation with Idril (I never really liked her very much). But I can't totally imagine this brief, passionate encounter with Thranduil.

The fact that he might have denied himself this chance for happiness is so sad! And these last lines, his guilt and shame (and yet not quite believing it) just broke my heart. I already loved your Glorfindel, with more depth, even more so <3

 

 

 



Author's Response:

I had to write this scene because in Through a Glass, I did a throwaway line -something Glorfindel remembers about Thranduil (or it may have been More Dangerous) and I had so many readers begging for it, I had to write this. I am in love with Glorfindle too- but isn't everyone?



Title: The Price of Vengeance II by Encairion
Rated: Mature [Reviews - 232]
Summary:

Sequel to The Price of Vengeance I. A novella of the House of Finwë  from the end of the First Age to the fall of the Last Alliance upon the slopes of Mount Doom.

 


Category: Fiction
Characters: Amdír, Amroth, Caranthir, Celeborn, Celebrían, Celebrimbor, Celegorm, Curufin, Eärendil, Elrond, Eluréd, Elurín, Fëanor, Galadriel, Gil-galad, Gildor, Glorfindel, Maedhros, Maglor, Narvi, OFC, OMC, Oropher, Sauron
Content: AU, Character Death, Drama, Dubcon, Explicit Sex, Het, Incest, Rape/Non-con, Slash
Challenge: None
Series: The Price of Eternity
Chapters: 59 | Completed: Yes | Word count: 396929 | Read count: 64118

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Published: November 05, 2014 | Updated: June 30, 2018


Reviewer: FirstAmazon Signed
Date: January 21, 2020 Title: Chapter 59: Chapter 57

Goddamit! Here I am again, crying my eyes out. What an AMAZING story! I don't know what I'm gonna do with this ending, but knowing Maglor eventually returns to his full self (it doesn't matter how hahaha) and is able to help Elrohir in the future is (kind of) enough.

My head kept spinning from beginning to end with all the romantic relations going on. I love how you wove the houses of Fëanor and Fingolfin in a way that even their great-grandsons are deeply connected, seeking comfort in each other and not being able to love anyone else. Just... beautifully done!

I loved the way you worked Celebrimbor's relationship with Annatar. The way you describe his emotions (or lack of them) was chilling, thrilling and threw me in a pit where I knew Sauron was capable of loving, even if it was a twisted one.

And OMG Glorfindel! His development was absolutely SUPERB! I loved every bit of it, from his beautiful relationship with Maglor and all the unrequited love between the cousins. Just wow! And although I really love what you did with all these characters, how you built their personalities and emotions, he is my top favorite character from your series! Beautiful and confident like he should've always been. I was so happy I got to see that!

Nevertheless, his relationship with Gil-Galad left me with a bittersweet aftertaste, because I wasn't able to see why the hell Gil-Galad was doing that to himself. I mean, I know he had to use the king's mask, and I know he was in love with Celebrimbor, but I don't get why he mistreated Glorfindel so much. Correct me if I'm wrong: I think he fell in love with but wasn't able to cross the barrier the memory of Fingon represented in the other's heart - also, maybe he had a little prejudice, even if he had desired. I mean, he steals a rosebud from Glorfindel's hair, then lies on a bed of roses and has him standing in a podium as his utmost hero - that was such a BEAUTIFUL image inside his mind! But from the start, since he'd made Glorfindel his second-in-command (with his pretty outfit, a wonderful, funny scene), I knew Gil-Galad wanted to open himself, but something kept holding him back. Was it really because of Fingon?

Anyway, the sharing of Glorfindel's memories was so powerful, and then his death - god! It broke me, like few in your series did. I really loved your Gil-Galad, even with all his coldness and his faults. As I said time and again, your writing is so compelling I forget this is not cannon.

Just... please, don't stop, all right? I'm jumping now to the Heralds of Dawn because I *NEED* to see the end of it, all of them kicking the Valar's asses, reclaiming the souls from Mandos, reuniting - oh god, I can almost SEE all of these things happening, and how they would react, such is the imagery you've given me.

Actually, if you chose to never stop writing I won't complain. Ever. xD and sorry for the babble of words, I'm still an emotional wreck xD

Author's Response:

"Goddamit! Here I am again, crying my eyes out. What an AMAZING story! I don't know what I'm gonna do with this ending, but knowing Maglor eventually returns to his full self (it doesn't matter how hahaha) and is able to help Elrohir in the future is (kind of) enough."

 

Thank you so much :grins:  The ending was such a tease, wasn't it?  I'm not sure if I'll ever go back and write Maglor's recovery, but for now, at least we know he does recover!


"My head kept spinning from beginning to end with all the romantic relations going on. I love how you wove the houses of Fëanor and Fingolfin in a way that even their great-grandsons are deeply connected, seeking comfort in each other and not being able to love anyone else. Just... beautifully done!"

 

Ah, the House of Finwe!  Every time I have an idea for a pairing outside Finwe's House, the characters refuse to corporate lol.  I can't tell you how many plot points they've ruined!  I actually hadn't meant for Glorfindel/Gil-galad to be a thing, but the two of them wouldn't have it any other way :)

"I loved the way you worked Celebrimbor's relationship with Annatar. The way you describe his emotions (or lack of them) was chilling, thrilling and threw me in a pit where I knew Sauron was capable of loving, even if it was a twisted one."

 

So glad to hear you enjoyed it!  Annatar was one of those characters I was incredibly nervous about writing.  Getting into the head of someone that messy up and that intelligent is hella intimidating, so it means all the more to me to hear you think I pulled it off :)

"And OMG Glorfindel! His development was absolutely SUPERB! I loved every bit of it, from his beautiful relationship with Maglor and all the unrequited love between the cousins. Just wow! And although I really love what you did with all these characters, how you built their personalities and emotions, he is my top favorite character from your series! Beautiful and confident like he should've always been. I was so happy I got to see that!"

 

Oh, this makes me happy!  I just love Glorfindel so much too!  I've put him through hell but he's finally found himself and refuses to let anyone take that away from him.

"Nevertheless, his relationship with Gil-Galad left me with a bittersweet aftertaste, because I wasn't able to see why the hell Gil-Galad was doing that to himself. I mean, I know he had to use the king's mask, and I know he was in love with Celebrimbor, but I don't get why he mistreated Glorfindel so much. Correct me if I'm wrong: I think he fell in love with but wasn't able to cross the barrier the memory of Fingon represented in the other's heart - also, maybe he had a little prejudice, even if he had desired. I mean, he steals a rosebud from Glorfindel's hair, then lies on a bed of roses and has him standing in a podium as his utmost hero - that was such a BEAUTIFUL image inside his mind! But from the start, since he'd made Glorfindel his second-in-command (with his pretty outfit, a wonderful, funny scene), I knew Gil-Galad wanted to open himself, but something kept holding him back. Was it really because of Fingon?"

 

Gil-galad is...complicated.   He was a child-king in the middle of a war they had no hope of winning where everyone was looking at this orphaned boy all alone in the world to save them.  He made himself stone, hid himself away, became The King until he didn't know how to be anything else.  He had a ton of issues to deal with, but while he's gotten better in a lot of ways, he still has work to do.  Making himself vulnerable is really hard for him as he sees it as a weakness to be exploited.  Being so repressed in his emotions, he's not completely in touch with them either.  While he did love celebrimbor romantically, HE never realized this.  But loosing the last person he loved to death, as he'd lost so many others, defiantly played a role in his reluctance to open himself to glorfindel.  His relationship with his father also became poisoned by galadriel.  Eventually he learned the truth, but not until after he'd carried around the weight of believing his father was a rapist for centuries.  It was hard for him to return to the pureness of his childhood memories of Fingon after his mind had been so warped with lies.  And then Glorfinedel comes along, and Gil-galad falls in love with someone in love with his father, and he ends up battling against envy, not only of Glorifndel's love for Fingon, but also of Glorfindel's chance to know his father as Gil-galad fears he never will.  He did not want his love for his father to be poisoned again but found it hard to battle against.  And then, when he might have overcome all this, he gets the vision of Glorfindel's death.  After he makes the decision to die in Glorfindel's place, he withdraws for Glorifndle's sake, not wanting to take more of Glorfindle's heart than he has into death.  

 

Gil-galad has a complicated relationship with intimacy.  He is both afraid of the pain that comes after, but also afraid to make others suffer that pain on his behalf.  He hasn't learned that it's better to have loved than to never love at all.

"Just... please, don't stop, all right? I'm jumping now to the Heralds of Dawn because I *NEED* to see the end of it, all of them kicking the Valar's asses, reclaiming the souls from Mandos, reuniting - oh god, I can almost SEE all of these things happening, and how they would react, such is the imagery you've given me."

 

I am determined to finish this series even if it takes me another decade, even if it's the only thing I ever write again, I have to finish!  So, you see, I treasure all your kind words and encouragement, I need them like fuel for the road ahead :)  I hoe you enjoy Heralds, and wish I could give you all the Dead returned and all the reunions we've been waiting for, but, as you have no doubt discovered, we have a ways yet to go before we get there :(



Reviewer: FirstAmazon Signed
Date: January 28, 2020 Title: Chapter 57: Chapter 55

You know, it's been a week or so since I finished The Price of Vengeance II but, like all good literature, I just keep going back to the relationship between your amazing Gil-Galad and my sweetheart Glorfindel.

Help me understand, please! Because I think Gil-Galad is your second most complex character losing to Glorfindel only because he is so mysterious! I'm never quite sure of what he's thinking or what he really wants. At first it seemed like he envied Glorfindel for being openly gay, wishing to be more like him, and, at the same time, wishing Glorfindel was a little rougher, perhaps more like Celebrimbor? Although he appeared to be very attracted - because with this Glorfindel, who wouldn't? - and a great admirer of his warrior skills. But being as close as he was, I wager Glorfindel would cause him as much wonder as he caused Glorfindel: they couldn't quite read the other.

There was a moment I thought Gil-Galad wished Glorfindel didn't see Fingon in him all the time, and that's what kept him secretive about admitting his love - which is funny, because in the end Glorfindel indeed saw only Gil-Galad. On the other hand, did Gil-Galad really pretended it was Celebrimbor in bed with him? Or was it that both idiots loved each other and thought their loves were unrequited? Maybe Gil-Galad even knew he was in love with Glorfindel much sooner, and Glorfindel only thought his attraction would never be corresponded xD that would be very Finwëion indeed (but then... Why would Glorfindel refuse him after he'd forgiven him?)

And if Gil-Galad loved Glorfindel as I think he did, dreaming about his death (when Glorfindel kissed him the first time in the watch tower, right?) didn't help at all. Anyway, a lot of emotions going on - seriously, this thing you do is unbelievable!

Author's Response:

"You know, it's been a week or so since I finished The Price of Vengeance II but, like all good literature, I just keep going back to the relationship between your amazing Gil-Galad and my sweetheart Glorfindel."

 

Yes! :fist pump: It's amazing to hear the story/characters stuck with you like that!

 

"Help me understand, please! Because I think Gil-Galad is your second most complex character losing to Glorfindel only because he is so mysterious!"

 

Oh, yeah, I agree, he's one of the most complex.  There is so much going on under the surface, I feel like there's still much about him that I don't yet understand either!

 

"At first it seemed like he envied Glorfindel for being openly gay, wishing to be more like him, and, at the same time, wishing Glorfindel was a little rougher, perhaps more like Celebrimbor?"

 

I don't really think that Gil-galad envies Glorfindel's confidence with his sexuality, but is more wistful and envious of Glorfindel's position in society that allows him to be open.  Gil-galad doesn't feel like he has that freedom.  He feels the pressure of kingship, he doesn't want to alienate large portions of his people, but he is also hopefully that his people will soon have progressed enough to accept him as he is.

 

"they couldn't quite read the other."


This.  So much.  Especially on Glorfindel's side with Gil-galad repressing so many of his thoughts and feelings.  At this point in his life, Gil-galad clamps done on vulnerability by instinct.  He had a messed up childhood in its own way.  Forced to grow up too fast, put in an impossible position as king of a dying people, and then being so alone and isolated on top of that.  After his mother died, he was left with advisers who often cared more about the legacy he represented, the symbol of his blood, and the survival of their people, than Gil-galad himself.  It was abuse, what they did to him, even if he's never seen it that way and the ones perpetrating the abuse did not see it as abuse.  We saw a glimpse of what he went through, but there is a lot of Gil-galad's childhood still left in the dark.  He's worked hard to overcome his past, he's defeated the anger that used to control him, come to terms with his mistakes -his treatment of the Feanorions under his care and the way he used sex, and people, unhealthily as a coping mechanism-- but he still finds it really had to open himself emotionally after all the times he'd been burned as a young king.  He learned the hard way that there are people out there who would use his every vulnerability to their gain.

"On the other hand, did Gil-Galad really pretended it was Celebrimbor in bed with him? Or was it that both idiots loved each other and thought their loves were unrequited?"


More of the latter.  Glorfindel didn't read the situation right, unreliable narrator and all that.  Gil-galad was in love with Celebrimbor, but he didn't even relize it himself, though the shadow of that loss sticks with him and makes it harder to open himself to another.  But that sex scene was a mess because neither understood the other yet, so there were a lot of misunderstandings and then lashings out.


The thing about Gil-galad and Glorfindel's relationship was that it was cut off in the middle.  There was no resolution, no moment where they finally laid it all on the table and talked and saw the whole of the other.  I think their relationship comes off as half-finished because it was.  They hadn't reached that depth with each other that would have solified their love.  With where they ended, Gil-galad had not won all of Glorfindel's heart and Gil-galad loved and desired Glorfindel, but did not know him with the intimacy he knew Celebrimbor. 


"And if Gil-Galad loved Glorfindel as I think he did, dreaming about his death (when Glorfindel kissed him the first time in the watch tower, right?) didn't help at all. Anyway, a lot of emotions going on - seriously, this thing you do is unbelievable!"

Yes, Gil-galad had already dreamed Glorfindel's death and already decided to take his place.  To him, walking away from Glorfindel and putting distance between them was him protecting Glorfindel.  Gil-galad believed himself destined for death, and believed the most self-less and loving thing he could do was push Glorfindel away before Glorfindel fell too deep.  And, in a way, he was right.  Glorfindel mourned, but he was able to go on with his life and know happiness in the years to come.  Gil-galad's death did not destroy him like Fingon's did Maedhros,' or Elmirion's did Celebrimbor.

I just love how much you love the story!  Seriously, it feels amazing :)  I just want to roll around in your reviews, or wear them like a snugly blanket.  You are amazing :hugs:



Reviewer: FirstAmazon Signed
Date: January 31, 2020 Title: Chapter 1: Chapter 1

This.  So much.  Especially on Glorfindel's side with Gil-galad repressing so many of his thoughts and feelings.  At this point in his life, Gil-galad clamps done on vulnerability by instinct.  He had a messed up childhood in its own way.  Forced to grow up too fast, put in an impossible position as king of a dying people, and then being so alone and isolated on top of that.  After his mother died, he was left with advisers who often cared more about the legacy he represented, the symbol of his blood, and the survival of their people, than Gil-galad himself.  It was abuse, what they did to him, even if he's never seen it that way and the ones perpetrating the abuse did not see it as abuse.  We saw a glimpse of what he went through, but there is a lot of Gil-galad's childhood still left in the dark.  He's worked hard to overcome his past, he's defeated the anger that used to control him, come to terms with his mistakes -his treatment of the Feanorions under his care and the way he used sex, and people, unhealthily as a coping mechanism-- but he still finds it really had to open himself emotionally after all the times he'd been burned as a young king.  He learned the hard way that there are people out there who would use his every vulnerability to their gain.

Ok, I see it now. He was alone as a child-king, all his advisors and councellors expecting him to be something else in a time where a wrong political move would be fatal for his people. Of course the court would take advantage over a child-king if they saw anything weakness. But if nothing else, I'm glad he realized how wrong his behavior with Elros had been, even if he wasn't able to love him in the end.

More of the latter.  Glorfindel didn't read the situation right, unreliable narrator and all that.  Gil-galad was in love with Celebrimbor, but he didn't even relize it himself, though the shadow of that loss sticks with him and makes it harder to open himself to another.  But that sex scene was a mess because neither understood the other yet, so there were a lot of misunderstandings and then lashings out.

 

The thing about Gil-galad and Glorfindel's relationship was that it was cut off in the middle.  There was no resolution, no moment where they finally laid it all on the table and talked and saw the whole of the other.  I think their relationship comes off as half-finished because it was.  They hadn't reached that depth with each other that would have solified their love.  With where they ended, Gil-galad had not won all of Glorfindel's heart and Gil-galad loved and desired Glorfindel, but did not know him with the intimacy he knew Celebrimbor. 

 

 

Oh, yeah, I wondered about Gil-Galad's reactions because he was so unreadable to our narrator. But looking back, it's all there - all the confusion between them and, as you said, the lack of friendship and intimacy that Gil-Galad shared with Celebrimbor and even Gildor. It's obvious, if I think about it now, that Gil-Galad and Glorfindel didn't had the same amount of time to know one another. And although it's beautiful to think that, in so short time, Gil-Galad fell in love with him (because, again, who wouldn't? <3) it also made things impossible. The timing was terrible! Celebrimbor's death and the war only enhanced their distance. I also think that, while Maglor was well, Glorfindel wouldn't have pursued his desires as he did during the Dagorlad (but I could be wrong, since Glorfindel became this powerful, confident force in itself).

 

It was hard for him to return to the pureness of his childhood memories of Fingon after his mind had been so warped with lies.  And then Glorfinedel comes along, and Gil-galad falls in love with someone in love with his father, and he ends up battling against envy, not only of Glorifndel's love for Fingon, but also of Glorfindel's chance to know his father as Gil-galad fears he never will.  He did not want his love for his father to be poisoned again but found it hard to battle against.  And then, when he might have overcome all this, he gets the vision of Glorfindel's death.  After he makes the decision to die in Glorfindel's place, he withdraws for Glorifndle's sake, not wanting to take more of Glorfindle's heart than he has into death.  

 

You said this on the other comment. It's crazy of Gil-Galad to think he was intimate with such a closed person as Celebrimbor. I mean, they shared ONE kiss (which Gil-Galad told us it wasn't reciprocated), and then there was that one time before Elmírion's birth. It's curious to think that Gil-Galad allowed himself to think they had intimacy - when they might have none, for Celebrimbor's part - and deny himself to open to Glorfindel, even if it was to put aside his idea of Fingon, and also allow Glorfindel to see him for whom he was. But that required emotional maturity, which Gil-Galad certainly didn't have, for all his political cleverness.

 

The only thing that still gnaws at me is that Gil-Galad didn't reach out to breach the distance he purposefully put between them when they were reunited during the war, before he dreamed of Glorfindel's death. I understand his attitudes now, but I still want to knock their heads together. Just talk, people, it's not that hard! xD

 

Anyway, it all makes more sense now, thanks for clarifying it! ^^

 

Yes, Gil-galad had already dreamed Glorfindel's death and already decided to take his place.  To him, walking away from Glorfindel and putting distance between them was him protecting Glorfindel.  Gil-galad believed himself destined for death, and believed the most self-less and loving thing he could do was push Glorfindel away before Glorfindel fell too deep.  And, in a way, he was right.  Glorfindel mourned, but he was able to go on with his life and know happiness in the years to come.  Gil-galad's death did not destroy him like Fingon's did Maedhros,' or Elmirion's did Celebrimbor.


Oh god, this! So tragic, so beautiful! The ultimate love proof </3 and yes, I totally agree that Gil-Galad would be far more devasteted if Glorfindel died because, even though he had Gildor's love, they were not romantically attached. He didn't have anything like the unconditional love Maglor had for Glorfindel.


I just love how much you love the story!  Seriously, it feels amazing :)  I just want to roll around in your reviews, or wear them like a snugly blanket.  You are amazing :hugs:


Please, do! They're here for the taking LOL


But seriously now, your story is just too incredible! It's so complex, so rich in details, and so powerful I lack words. Everytime I re-read some passage (because yeah, I just can't get enough), I wonder how you can weave such things - the political intrigues, how you encompass the evolution of a whole continent (in warfare, religion, costumes, clothing, language...) it's ridiculous! hahaha I'm gonna stop now, 'cause I feel I could go on indefinitely. YOU are amazing, dear Beth :)



Author's Response:
"I also think that, while Maglor was well, Glorfindel wouldn't have pursued his desires as he did during the Dagorlad (but I could be wrong, since Glorfindel became this powerful, confident force in itself)."

No, I think you're right.  If Maglor were well, Glorfindel would have not only had that relationship/love to sustain him, he also wouldn't have spent as much time with Gil-galad, choosing Maglor instead.

 

"It's crazy of Gil-Galad to think he was intimate with such a closed person as Celebrimbor. I mean, they shared ONE kiss (which Gil-Galad told us it wasn't reciprocated), and then there was that one time before Elmírion's birth. It's curious to think that Gil-Galad allowed himself to think they had intimacy - when they might have none, for Celebrimbor's part - and deny himself to open to Glorfindel, even if it was to put aside his idea of Fingon, and also allow Glorfindel to see him for whom he was. But that required emotional maturity, which Gil-Galad certainly didn't have, for all his political cleverness."

 

You are right to question the depth of Gil-galad and Celebrimbor's relationship.  I do think it was far more on Gil-galad's side than Celebrimnor's.  It goes back to the bleakness, the loneliness, of Gil-galad's life.  He did make some friends that had no blood ties to him, but there is something much more intense about sharing a deep bond with a Finweion because of how tied up their histories and destinies were.  They all fell under the Doom, they all experienced the pressures of leadership, Celerbimbor and Gil-galad both living through some of the darkest years (perhaps THE darkest years) of their people's history, and then the two of them had the shared experience of being sons of men who had done some terrible things (at least before Gil-galad learned the truth).  Those shared experiences laid the foundations for the bond between them, and it only enhanced in those years before Glorfindel and Maglor's return when there were so so few of their family left.

 

All that said, their bond meant more to GIl-galad than it did Celebrimbor.  Celebrimbor knew what it was to have a family, he wasn't like Gil-galad who had grown up alone in that regard, an orphan with an orphan's craving for family and that sense of belonging.  Celebrimbor was the most Gil-galad had ever loved someone romantically, or loved at all after his father and mother's deaths.  But the love was a mix between loves, family, brotherhood, companionship, and the desire for a lover too.  But with Glorfindel he was very much IN LOVE with Glorfindel, and it was the lack of strong bonds of friendship /intamcy underneath that caused the problems.

 

"The only thing that still gnaws at me is that Gil-Galad didn't reach out to breach the distance he purposefully put between them when they were reunited during the war, before he dreamed of Glorfindel's death. I understand his attitudes now, but I still want to knock their heads together. Just talk, people, it's not that hard! xD"


Yeah, you are totally right.  Everything would have worked out so much better if Gil-galad had.  I suppose this is one of his great weaknesses, as you put it, his lack of emotional maturity -or maybe emotional confidence, trust?  Or maybe beautiful, radiant Glorfindel just intimidated the hell out of him lol


"But seriously now, your story is just too incredible! It's so complex, so" rich in details, and so powerful I lack words. Everytime I re-read some passage (because yeah, I just can't get enough), I wonder how you can weave such things - the political intrigues, how you encompass the evolution of a whole continent (in warfare, religion, costumes, clothing, language...) it's ridiculous! hahaha I'm gonna stop now, 'cause I feel I could go on indefinitely. YOU are amazing, dear Beth :)"

 

YOU are the one with a way with words!  Gods, your reviews!  I can put them into words!  They are just such a blessing, sun-bright, like a huge wrapped up in words, full of encouragement!  Thank you!!!! :::hugs:::



Reviewer: FirstAmazon Signed
Date: February 03, 2020 Title: Chapter 1: Chapter 1

"All that said, their bond meant more to GIl-galad than it did Celebrimbor.  Celebrimbor knew what it was to have a family, he wasn't like Gil-galad who had grown up alone in that regard, an orphan with an orphan's craving for family and that sense of belonging.  Celebrimbor was the most Gil-galad had ever loved someone romantically, or loved at all after his father and mother's deaths.  But the love was a mix between loves, family, brotherhood, companionship, and the desire for a lover too.  But with Glorfindel he was very much IN LOVE with Glorfindel, and it was the lack of strong bonds of friendship /intamcy underneath that caused the problems."

Oh, god! This understanding kills me. You will find it amusing, no doubt, but I actually dreamed about these two reuniting (LOLOL no joke!). That's how much I'm anticipating your story - no pressure, no pressure hahaha!

 

"Or maybe beautiful, radiant Glorfindel just intimidated the hell out of him lol"

 

That's something I would REALLY like to see... Gil-Galad's point of view of all this!


"YOU are the one with a way with words!  Gods, your reviews!  I can put them into words!  They are just such a blessing, sun-bright, like a huge wrapped up in words, full of encouragement!  Thank you!!!! :::hugs:::"

 

:hugging back: <3



Author's Response:

"You will find it amusing, no doubt, but I actually dreamed about these two reuniting (LOLOL no joke!). That's how much I'm anticipating your story - no pressure, no pressure hahaha!"

 

No pressure right.  lol  But seriously, this is a huge complement!  

 

"That's something I would REALLY like to see... Gil-Galad's point of view of all this!"

 

I did that on purpose.  I meant to torture you lol  Really though, I was thinking about the romantic stories I like best, and only being in the POV of one character can heighten the tension, I think.  With Gil-galad's reservation, it was even tougher for Glorfindel to figure him out.  (Talking about these two with you has got me craving Gil-galad's rebirth!  There is so much still to explore with him.  Gods, I want everyone back and all the reunions we've been waiting so long for!  And yes, that's me we are waiting on here lol, but you ever just really want someone else to write your own story so you can enjoy all the fun of reading it :snorts:)



Reviewer: FirstAmazon Signed
Date: February 13, 2020 Title: Chapter 1: Chapter 1

I did that on purpose.  I meant to torture you lol  Really though, I was thinking about the romantic stories I like best, and only being in the POV of one character can heighten the tension, I think.  With Gil-galad's reservation, it was even tougher for Glorfindel to figure him out.  (Talking about these two with you has got me craving Gil-galad's rebirth!  There is so much still to explore with him.  Gods, I want everyone back and all the reunions we've been waiting so long for! 


Oh god you evil, evil writer! I know, knowing both POVs kind of spreads the tension (I can't help it myself, I like exploring all possible sides lol) but if I made you crave for Gil-Galad's rebirth, then mission accomplished. I'll just sit back and enjoy the ride xD 


And yes, that's me we are waiting on here lol, but you ever just really want someone else to write your own story so you can enjoy all the fun of reading it :snorts:)


Well, that's a bit problematic, since it's not nearly easy to fill in your shoes. So get back to work, lady! (no pressure, I swear, no pressure! lol) I'm kidding, I actually don't know the feeling of wanting to enjoy my stories (any) as a reader, since I'm never satisified with anything hahaha. 



Author's Response:

Well, that's a bit problematic, since it's not nearly easy to fill in your shoes. So get back to work, lady! (no pressure, I swear, no pressure! lol) I'm kidding, I actually don't know the feeling of wanting to enjoy my stories (any) as a reader, since I'm never satisified with anything hahaha.”

 

Ha!  You know, after I sent that I was thinking more about it, and thought NOT being the one writing the story would drive me crazy.  While I’m all down for the muse taking me where it will, in the end I have the final say, and after so much time devoted to the story, I have very strong ideas about where it’s headed.  (All that said tho, there have also been plenty of times I wish I could write and Au of my own story lol).  So now I both want to read it but also want to write it.  Wow, indecisive much :grins:

 

Maybe after a while you will want to come back and just relax and enjoy your own story.  I confess that when I’m going back to edit old stuff I get caught up in the story because I forget what happens next (a sign of a mega length fic lol).



Title: Lost children of the sun by Encairion
Rated: Explicit [Reviews - 44]
Summary:

They were born in an Age when ambition burnt the Noldor’s tongues with the memory of a thousand griefs come before. Their people’s glory had crashed into the Earth, fallen-star brilliance long imploded into dust. 

This is the story of the sons of Elrond; two stars born into a fading world.

This is also a companion piece to The Price of Memory, and contains the story of Erion Erestorion.

 


Category: Fiction
Characters: Arwen, Eldarion, Elladan, Elrohir, Erestor, Gildor, Glorfindel, Legolas, Lindir, Maglor, OFC, OMC
Content: Angst, AU, Drama, Explicit Sex, Rape/Non-con, Slash
Challenge: None
Series: The Price of Eternity
Chapters: 10 | Completed: Yes | Word count: 61174 | Read count: 10222

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Published: November 21, 2015 | Updated: September 04, 2016


Reviewer: FirstAmazon Signed
Date: January 15, 2020 Title: Chapter 10: Chapter 10

Ohhh I can *taste* the vengeance in the air, brewing like a storm! You tease! I loved this! Your portrait of the twins is amazing (and I loved how you make them dark your own way, different from ziggy's and yet the same). I also adored your portrait of Legolas, careless and yet irresistibly seductive.

Erion's fate made me feel so sad... I hope he gets what he craves in the end, or at least some sort of closure.

I can't wait to see what's next (even though I don't want this series to ever end!), hoping the war will bring all the dead back again!

Author's Response:

 “Ohhh I can *taste* the vengeance in the air, brewing like a storm!”

 

I am glad to hear that came through so well in the story!  When I think of this story, a brewing storm is such a good description of it.  The Elves are on the brink now, so close to the final showdown and the return of the dead!

 

 “Your portrait of the twins is amazing (and I loved how you make them dark your own way, different from ziggy's and yet the same).”

 

Thank you for the complement!  Ziggy’s twins are on another level, and I was very much inspired by her portal of them.  Her Elrohir is like THE Elrohir of the fandom, you know?

 

“Erion's fate made me feel so sad... I hope he gets what he craves in the end, or at least some sort of closure.

 

There will be sadness, but I don’t think I could end anyone’s story in just sadness.  What’s the point of fiction if there isn’t hope in the end?  So, yeah, it won’t be all sadness :)  The same goes for the dead!  No way am I leaving them like this!  There has to be happiness to balance all the heartbreak!  I don’t do pure tragedy; it would break my heart to write it too much.



Title: Interlude in Lothlorien by ziggy
Rated: Explicit [Reviews - 7]
Summary:

Erestor doesn't quite meet his match in Lotlorien.

Warning: BDSM. Slash. Erestor/Haldir. Mention Haldir/Legolas.


Category: Fiction
Characters: Erestor
Content: BDSM
Challenge: None
Series: None
Chapters: 1 | Completed: Yes | Word count: 2582 | Read count: 1067

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Published: January 07, 2018 | Updated: January 07, 2018


Reviewer: FirstAmazon Signed
Date: March 30, 2020 Title: Chapter 1: Chapter 1

A little pause in SoTII to read this, and to understand a little bit more of Haldir. If he did with young, traumatized Elrohir what he claims he did with Legolas, I'm gonna kill him. No one hurts my baby so!

But this was a great interlude, indeed. Erestor being just the best person ever. I hope Elladan cracks his pride soon! <3

Great interlude, ziggy! :)



Author's Response:

He didn't do quite the sopisticated BDSM that Erestor did0 but he did seduce Elrohir and in Elrohir's mind, corrupt him- I don't know why Haldir brings out the worst in me, but he does. Yep- Erestor. The Best Person Ever Award!! Just wait 9rubs hands in glee)



Title: A Feast of Ashes by Kalendeer
Rated: General Audiences [Reviews - 16]
Summary:

In Barad Eithel, High King Fingolfin lives under the shadow of his half-brother, dead on the very spot where the fortress was built.

At the Feast of Reuniting, the ghost who haunts Fingolfin's nights somehow becomes real.


Category: Fiction
Characters: Aredhel, Fëanor, Fingolfin, Fingon, Idril, Maedhros, Maglor, Melkor/Morgoth, OFC, OMC, Turgon
Content: Angst, Gen, Mystery
Challenge: None
Series: None
Chapters: 27 | Completed: No | Word count: 93815 | Read count: 3020

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Published: June 05, 2018 | Updated: March 31, 2020


Reviewer: FirstAmazon Signed
Date: March 18, 2020 Title: Chapter 1: Prologue: White stones in a small grove

Well, that got me from the start! Such an incredible idea! I like the fact that the place where Fëanor died became a kind of memorial from his followers. It totally would have in canon, I can see it now. But this was ominous and sad. I'm bracing myself for the tears (and excitedly doing so!)



Author's Response:

Thank you for your comment <3

I remember reading a fic about this memorial, though the idea was different. They would plant a tree each time Fëanor or one of his sons died. At the end only Maglor and Maedhros' were left, and then the trees disappeared when Beleriand sank. I don't remember who wrote this fic or its title, but that was the beginning of this idea.

Don't brace yourself too hard, the truth is I am a big softy so there will be tears, and then hugs ! (and then more tears. And then more hugs.)



Reviewer: FirstAmazon Signed
Date: March 18, 2020 Title: Chapter 2: Part 1, Ch1 : Best Greetings [Fingolfin]

This was a really great chapter! It's so sad seeing how Endor, the promsied land, took its tolls from them all, but especially for Fingolfin. And the facttthat he no longer sees himself as the politician from Tirion is so true and really well portraied. Butt my favorite parts were Fingolfin's chat with both Fingon, then Maedhros - who I already liked a lot!



Author's Response:

Fingolfin has been here for 20 years and he is already fed up with everything lol. For all his fire, he talked against leaving Tirion in the first place, and coming to ME meant a lot of sacrifices for him. The more I wrote about him in this fic, the more he sounded depressed and cut from everything he loved :/

I like Maedhros' part here more than Fingon's (some of Fingon's was actually cut in the new version, here I feel like it drags a bit). It is amusing to see someone who is even MORE cynical than Fingolfin lol. And that he is like "I can do whatever I want even if I am not the king" lol.

 

Thank you so much for you kind review <3



Title: Heralds of the Dawn by Encairion
Rated: Mature [Reviews - 144]
Summary:

And death shall have no dominion.

The final installment of The Price of Eternity series.

 


Category: Fiction
Characters: Aegnor, Aredhel, Caranthir, Celebrimbor, Celegorm, Curufin, Eärendil, Elenwë, Elladan, Elrohir, Eluréd, Elurín, Eonwë, Fëanor, Finarfin, Fingolfin, Fingon, Finrod, Finwë, Gil-galad, Gildor, Glorfindel, Idril, Maedhros, Maeglin, Maglor
Content: Action/Adventure, Angst, AU, Character Death, Drama, Dubcon, Erotica, Explicit Sex, Het, Incest, Rape/Non-con, Slash
Challenge: None
Series: The Price of Eternity
Chapters: 22 | Completed: No | Word count: 187206 | Read count: 15770

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Published: June 30, 2018 | Updated: February 27, 2020


Reviewer: FirstAmazon Signed
Date: January 23, 2020 Title: Chapter 10: Chapter 10

OMFG!!!! They KILLED Ulmo!!! Go, Aegnor! I never really empathised with his character, but he was incredible! And the realisation that they CAN do this makes me wish Glorfindel and Maglor could listen to the tale back in Middle-Earth and make haste to take their revenge hehe.

The chapter was amazing (as usual)! I loved the idea of the sea-prison, and the whole battle had me on the edge of my seat. Ossë is a frequent left-aside character, but I love you gave him the reckless, bold spirit of sea storms. It's how it's supposed to be, really.

About the Curufin/Finrod relationship, although I see them knocking their heads off, but still loving one another, I can't see them really together as a couple, you know? I think Curufin's pride would never allow him to ask for Finrod's forgiveness - which makes me think (wish) that Caranthir actually has a chance with his brother, especially after learning about Fëanor and Fingolfin's relationship (as I'm sure the children eventually will. I remember Maglor saw in Fingolfin the lust he had for his father, so I imagine it wouldn't take long for him to realize it's more than just that - and, of course, there's also Maglor loving Maedhros thing. Geez, what a mess xD).

And poor Finarfin. I feel for him. He's been dispised by everyone, and Finrod will learn only too slowly the loneliness and heartache of his father's heart, being in Aman for so very long without being able to do nothing except bow his head. I wonder if Finarfin will ever tell anyone about have been stripped of his manhood - if for his Finwëion pride, I suppose not, but I can also see his brothers looking right through him (and being completely enraged with Turgon, looking for blood).

Again, amazing! Can't wait to devour the rest of the story :P

Author's Response:

"Go, Aegnor! I never really empathised with his character, but he was incredible!"

I know what you mean.  I didn't pay him much attention when the series started either, he was a character that didn't have much color for me.  But then I read this line by Andreth " “I was young and I looked on his flame, and now I am old and lost. He was young and his flame leaped towards me, but he turned away, and he is young still. Do candles pity moths?”" and Finrod's description of him as a warrior through and through, and I got curious.  He's one of those characters tho who are pretty much OCs because of how little we know of them (so, like, every other character in the Silm lol).

"And the realisation that they CAN do this makes me wish Glorfindel and Maglor could listen to the tale back in Middle-Earth and make haste to take their revenge hehe."

Yeah, it no longer seems impossible to kill a Vala, which can give them hope.  The only thing is, I didn't want it to be too easy, so Varda has her plots and she's trying to bring the Valar back to strength.  Ulmo was quite faded after all, much easier to kill.  But if he didn't die, it would have been a lot harder to cross the seas.  I image Caranthir and Maglor never would have made it to Valinor if Ulmo was at full strength.  I also want to bring the Valar out from the hive, as it were.  They all have their own motivations and desires that don't always align.  We know about some, but I wanted to give each their own story, as it were.  We also see how their obsession with the Eternal Flame was not just limited to the Silmarils.  The Elves all have a small spark of the Flame in their fea as well, and many of the Valar were drawn to it/drawn to them, craving the Light.

"Ossë is a frequent left-aside character, but I love you gave him the reckless, bold spirit of sea storms."

Yes, exactly.  He is the impersonation of a storm, its destruction, chaos, and unexpectedness.  I am glad he came off well!

All good thoughts on the Finrod, Curufin, Caranthir tangle.  I'm trying to keep mum on it (and the story might still surprise me by swinging a different way), but I don't want to reveal and loose the mystery element :)  Hopefully it will all turn out well :)

"He's been dispised by everyone, and Finrod will learn only too slowly the loneliness and heartache of his father's heart, being in Aman for so very long without being able to do nothing except bow his head."

Oh yes, Finarfin has had a hard road indeed, and one many others of his family wouldn't have been able to walk.  He has learned patience and endurance, and how to survive in enemy territory.  Finrod is just now learning his father's wisdom.  His experience were quite different in Beleriand.  He certainly outgrew his younger self, and faced different hardships than Finarfin, but where Finarfin has grown into a quietly confident man (for all he doubts himself, he never doubts what he knows to be right), Finrod's experiences at the end of his first life left him with a lot of baggage to work though, but I hope he can face the pass before he does something he'll really regret.

You are spot on that Finarfin will never willingly tell what Turgon did to him.  To him, it would not help in keeping the peace and getting the Noldor to work together, which he puts above his own hurts.

Thank you for these wonderful, wonderful reviews!!  They are so exciting :)



Reviewer: FirstAmazon Signed
Date: January 23, 2020 Title: Chapter 12: Chapter 12

/He will see you do not act the same, but tell him braking Thingol’s slave collar made me a butterfly birthing from its cocoon. Tell him you feel like red has become blue, and blue yellow. Tell him that the sunlight does not giggle to you anymore, and raccoons do not wave their bushy tails in hello. He will believe you because the words come from my lips./

/I should tell him the truth. What is the point of deceiving him other than sewing a fucking mess?/

/I might be flown away for weeks and weeks. Then Eluréd would be all alone. He needs to have someone or he will fly away from his body too./

/You are saying Eluréd would fade. But I will tell him you will not be gone forever./

/They will not be my lips telling him. He will not believe. He will be angry-sad and do something bad. You must promise not to tell./

/This is a fucking stupid idea that is never going to work,/ Caranthir grumbled.


OH MY GOD, YES, this is such a mess! Of course Elurín couldn't predict that being lied to, and having to deal with all that comes with it, is much worse than facing the truth? Maybe they could work together to bring Elurín back, but I have no idea where this's going (and that's amazing, you're always unpredictable with your turning points!).

I also love how Caranthir reacts. He's so much like himself. It's beautiful, funny and heartbreaking

Author's Response:

"Of course Elurín couldn't predict that being lied to, and having to deal with all that comes with it, is much worse than facing the truth?"

You're right.  In some ways, Elurín is wise, in others, it's hard for him to put himself in the average person's shoes.  It was a tough choice tho, after they decided to act now, they had no way of communicating what they intended before Elurín was gone.  But still you are right that lying made things worse.

"I also love how Caranthir reacts. He's so much like himself. It's beautiful, funny and heartbreaking"

Thank you so much!  Caranthir has a distinct voice, and it is a worry of mine that I don't always hit it.  Caranthir is a no-nonsense kind of guy, tho he's more of a romantic than you'd think at first glance :)  I am so glad you enjoyed this!  Us authors always crave that feed back to make sure things are still on track, don't we :)



Reviewer: FirstAmazon Signed
Date: January 31, 2020 Title: Chapter 1: Chapter 1

He's one of those characters tho who are pretty much OCs because of how little we know of them (so, like, every other character in the Silm lol).

OMG hahaha so true! I had never put it into so many words, but it's exactly how I feel. That's why I saw with such conviction you own these characters, because they're, in fact, yours ;)

Yeah, it no longer seems impossible to kill a Vala, which can give them hope.  The only thing is, I didn't want it to be too easy, so Varda has her plots and she's trying to bring the Valar back to strength.  Ulmo was quite faded after all, much easier to kill.  But if he didn't die, it would have been a lot harder to cross the seas.  I image Caranthir and Maglor never would have made it to Valinor if Ulmo was at full strength.  I also want to bring the Valar out from the hive, as it were.  They all have their own motivations and desires that don't always align.  We know about some, but I wanted to give each their own story, as it were.  We also see how their obsession with the Eternal Flame was not just limited to the Silmarils.  The Elves all have a small spark of the Flame in their fea as well, and many of the Valar were drawn to it/drawn to them, craving the Light.


I'm not expecting it to be easy - not coming from you! But I also don't want to make it sound like you need to push yourself into making something happen just to meet expectations. I know you, as all writers, feel you must, for your reader's sake, do it - all I want to say is trust your instincts. They've brought you this far :)

 

All good thoughts on the Finrod, Curufin, Caranthir tangle.  I'm trying to keep mum on it (and the story might still surprise me by swinging a different way), but I don't want to reveal and loose the mystery element :)  Hopefully it will all turn out well :)

Oh, you're making this look far too simple! You forgot to mention that in this tangle we also have Eluréd and Elurín (and whatever will happen between them and Caranthir), and Gildor, who not only is Finrod's son, but was also infatuated - perhaps more? - with Curufin xD

 

Oh yes, Finarfin has had a hard road indeed, and one many others of his family wouldn't have been able to walk.  He has learned patience and endurance, and how to survive in enemy territory.  Finrod is just now learning his father's wisdom.  His experience were quite different in Beleriand.  He certainly outgrew his younger self, and faced different hardships than Finarfin, but where Finarfin has grown into a quietly confident man (for all he doubts himself, he never doubts what he knows to be right), Finrod's experiences at the end of his first life left him with a lot of baggage to work though, but I hope he can face the pass before he does something he'll really regret.

You are spot on that Finarfin will never willingly tell what Turgon did to him.  To him, it would not help in keeping the peace and getting the Noldor to work together, which he puts above his own hurts.

Uhm, indeed, few of them could have endured being in the enemy's territory and still have gained a few consistent victories, like the rebirth of his sons. I'm certain Fëanor wouldn't have been able to do this, not even Fingolfin - and there's the beauty and tragedy of Finarfin's tale.

It's funny how I see a little of Eöl in him... the way he sees the world after Finrod is back reminds me of Eöl's innocent love for Finwë (without the sexual content, of course). Am I crazy? LOL

Thank you for these wonderful, wonderful reviews!!  They are so exciting :)

I confess I love the discussions that comes with reading! Big bookclubs fan here!

But it is I who have to thank you time and again for writing this amazing epic.



Author's Response:

"I'm not expecting it to be easy - not coming from you! But I also don't want to make it sound like you need to push yourself into making something happen just to meet expectations. I know you, as all writers, feel you must, for your reader's sake, do it - all I want to say is trust your instincts. They've brought you this far "

 

Thanks for the reminder   Always good to keep this in mind.  For all my plot plans tho, the story is going to be consumed by character development so it might end up that the big anticipated battle with the Valar only happens in the background or is pretty short compared to the set-up.  I actually like the idea of them spending a lot of time building up, gathering allies and the Dead, and then...the final show-down ends up not being this epic battle type thing.  I don't think it would feel like a let down since so much of the story is about the characters and their relationships.  I think the readers -and I- care more about those than the Valar-war...or maybe I'm wrong?

 

"Oh, you're making this look far too simple! You forgot to mention that in this tangle we also have Eluréd and Elurín (and whatever will happen between them and Caranthir), and Gildor, who not only is Finrod's son, but was also infatuated - perhaps more? - with Curufin xD"

 

Yes, you are quite right, there is a lot more involved than whether of not they can forgive each other.  No relationship happens in a vacum.  Gildor especailly will be an importan peice, not only because he had a serious crush on Curufin, but because of Curufin's taking advantage of that what gildor wasn't of age.  Finrod is going to find out, that's all I'm saying.

 

"It's funny how I see a little of Eöl in him... the way he sees the world after Finrod is back reminds me of Eöl's innocent love for Finwë (without the sexual content, of course). Am I crazy?"

 

No, I can see it.  It's probably the lack of memories at this point.  Before the Dead regain their memories, they are essentially the age since their Rebirth.  Elmririon and Maeglin are about 5 years old when they meet Finrod.  Well, 5 years of experiance with the world, but with an adult brain, and a developed personality.

 

"I confess I love the discussions that comes with reading! Big bookclubs fan here!"

 

I'm right there with you   Discussing the story is so rewarding, not only because every author likes talking about their stories lol but because reviews so often get me thinking about the characters from differnt angles, veiwing them from another's eyes; new insites and ideas often spring from discussions, and I for one will never say no to that!



Reviewer: FirstAmazon Signed
Date: February 05, 2020 Title: Chapter 1: Chapter 1

"Thanks for the reminder   Always good to keep this in mind.  For all my plot plans tho, the story is going to be consumed by character development so it might end up that the big anticipated battle with the Valar only happens in the background or is pretty short compared to the set-up.  I actually like the idea of them spending a lot of time building up, gathering allies and the Dead, and then...the final show-down ends up not being this epic battle type thing.  I don't think it would feel like a let down since so much of the story is about the characters and their relationships.  I think the readers -and I- care more about those than the Valar-war...or maybe I'm wrong?"


 


Definitely not wrong. I for one want to see the resolution of all those USTs, even if it is to make them final xD I mean, I think the war against the Valar is inevitable, and as a background, it would feel pretty much coherent with the rest of your story - the wars in Beleriand or against Sauron were never the focus; it was always the people involved. But, again, it's your prerrogative and I'm sure I'll enjoy whatever your brilliant mind conjures.


 


"Finrod is going to find out, that's all I'm saying."


 


Damn, shistorm coming! But then, Curufin deserves it lol!



Author's Response:

"Definitely not wrong. I for one want to see the resolution of all those USTs, even if it is to make them final xD I mean, I think the war against the Valar is inevitable, and as a background, it would feel pretty much coherent with the rest of your story - the wars in Beleriand or against Sauron were never the focus; it was always the people involved. But, again, it's your prerrogative and I'm sure I'll enjoy whatever your brilliant mind conjures."

 

Ah, I'm glad you feel it too!  The characters are defiantly the focus, everything else is only important for how it effects the characters.  And yeah, all that UST!  Feanor and Fingolfin never even got together before death!  And there are plenty of others who died without resolution -what would be the point of bringing them back if their stories were already over, you know?


 "Finrod is going to find out, that's all I'm saying."

Damn, shistorm coming! But then, Curufin deserves it lol!'

 

Oh, yeah, he defiantly does.  To me, his messing with Gildor's head when he was underage was the worst thing he did in life.  Like, the Kinslayings have their reasons for happening, Luthian's captivity had a reason, but even Curufin knows there was no justification for what he did with Gildor.  So, in that case, he knows exactly how bad it was, and it definitely played a role in his self-destruction as we saw in the chapter, so at least he's not in denial, but I doubt that's going to be good enough for Finrod!  Another question is: how does Gildor feel about what Curufin did now? (no spoilers :zip:)  Unfortunately I am leaving you hanging here without any answers!  Evil, I know :)



Reviewer: FirstAmazon Signed
Date: February 11, 2020 Title: Chapter 13: Chapter 13

All right, I'm back on your story (finally!). It's so sad to see Caranthir dreaming of his brothers, especially Curufin, without knowing if his love would ever be corresponded. I don't know the point of view for Curufin on this matter, but the fact that in the end he turned to Finrod gives me some sort of hope that Caranthir has a chance lol

Anyway, I adored the interaction between Caranthir and Eluréd. I bet they will learn a lot from one another.



Author's Response:

“I don't know the point of view for Curufin on this matter, but the fact that in the end he turned to Finrod gives me some sort of hope that Caranthir has a chance lol

 

You mean that he could be into guys?  Yeah, he’s defiantly bi.  And Caranthir being his brother won’t bother him.  It’s the state of his relationship with Caranthir that’s the problem.  Caranthir essentially spent centuries pushing Curufin away and often being quite nasty doing it.  There’s a lot of broken trust and pain there.  We will have to see if Curufin is willing to give Caranthir a chance to try and fix what he broke or not.  Curufin has a lot of his own issues to work on as well –this whole family needs mega therapy lol

 

“Anyway, I adored the interaction between Caranthir and Eluréd. I bet they will learn a lot from one another.

 

Aww!  I’m glad to hear it :) I was just thinking the other day about Eluréd, and was trying to pin down hobbies/interests/get a fully scope of his character, and I realized he doesn’t have any.  Not really.  He has the potential to have some –like I image he’d be into sewing/embroidery after his time with the Haladin—but his life has been about survival and trying not to drown under the weight of everything he’s been through up to now.  He’s a CSA survivor, and will carry those scars always, but I hope Caranthir/others he meets in Valinor will be able to help him find who he is outside of what has been done to him.



Reviewer: FirstAmazon Signed
Date: February 13, 2020 Title: Chapter 1: Chapter 1

And yeah, all that UST!  Feanor and Fingolfin never even got together before death!  And there are plenty of others who died without resolution -what would be the point of bringing them back if their stories were already over, you know?

 

Oh boy, don't even get me started with these two...! The one-shot on their rebirth you wrote for Spiced is beautiful, but it just made me crave for *so* much more! I really want them to finally solve all that crap from the past.

 

Oh, yeah, he defiantly does.  To me, his messing with Gildor's head when he was underage was the worst thing he did in life.  Like, the Kinslayings have their reasons for happening, Luthian's captivity had a reason, but even Curufin knows there was no justification for what he did with Gildor.  So, in that case, he knows exactly how bad it was, and it definitely played a role in his self-destruction as we saw in the chapter, so at least he's not in denial, but I doubt that's going to be good enough for Finrod!  Another question is: how does Gildor feel about what Curufin did now? (no spoilers :zip:)  Unfortunately I am leaving you hanging here without any answers!  Evil, I know :)

 

You evil tease! :S Of course you won't tell me anything, but I also wondered how will the relations play out for all the involved (Curufin and Finrod, Curufin and Gildor, Celebrimbor and Curufin - oh yes, I remember his thoughts about Annatar's smile). And now, Maeglin and Elmírion kind of have a fling (I read that chapter want to re-read it more carefully). You just keep adding fuel to the fire! lol oh well, I can't complain... I actually love it! xD



Author's Response:

“Oh boy, don't even get me started with these two...! The one-shot on their rebirth you wrote for Spiced is beautiful, but it just made me crave for *so* much more! I really want them to finally solve all that crap from the past.

 

Thank you :hugs:  And yes, I am right there with you!  It all comes down to the communication!  Like, things are never going to turn fluffy between these two, but right now they can’t see that they both want the same thing!  :fingers crossed for their rebirth: Only, you know I won’t make it THAT easy, will I :wink, wink:

 

“You evil tease! :S Of course you won't tell me anything, but I also wondered how will the relations play out for all the involved (Curufin and Finrod, Curufin and Gildor, Celebrimbor and Curufin - oh yes, I remember his thoughts about Annatar's smile). And now, Maeglin and Elmírion kind of have a fling (I read that chapter want to re-read it more carefully). You just keep adding fuel to the fire! lol oh well, I can't complain... I actually love it! xD

 

Ha!  I am an evil tease! (I’m trying to get better at not spilling the beans and spoiling!)  I like how you point out all the relationships crossing over and through the others!  So true, and it only makes things more complicated :)  I think that when we’ve got immortal Elves on our hands, many/most of which have outlived at least one lover, it’s inevitable that they will end up with a tidy collection by the end (looking at you Glorfindel).  Almost all the characters have the potential for having more than one lover by the time this thing is through.  But I doubt I will write a relationship that’s, say, a threesome (tho I’m not saying one won’t pop up in the writing….oh wait one already did! Eol/Miriel/Finwe/Anneth….ok so, anything goes :throws confetti:), but what I’m trying to say is that I could see Fingon/Glorfindel or Maedhros/Maglor hooking up (or all four!), but I don’t see it being a long-term four-member romantic relationship, you know?

 

Gods, I’m explaining this so badly!  I hope it will just turn out better in the actually story!



Reviewer: FirstAmazon Signed
Date: February 13, 2020 Title: Chapter 16: Chapter 16

Oooh I loved many ideas from this chapter! The Valar absorbing the Elven souls to stay alive, Varda's plan to rule beside Melkor, everything revolving to Fëanor's bright star... But, I won't accept that he truly believe Estë's lies! No, his sons would NEVER stop loving him, Fëanor can't truly believe that! D:

Can't wait to see what you'll do with the Valar, they're concepts are so very interesting!



Author's Response:

“Can't wait to see what you'll do with the Valar, they're concepts are so very interesting!

 

More ahead from where that came from :)  I defiantly want to try and flesh the Valar out from their hive-mind collective.  When we see them from the Elves’ POV, it makes sense that they seem like one menacing entity, but the Valar themselves don’t view themselves as such, and they each actually have their own past and future ambitions.

 

“But, I won't accept that he truly believe Estë's lies! No, his sons would NEVER stop loving him, Fëanor can't truly believe that! D:

 

Well….

 

Let’s just say he’s not in a good place right now and he needs his sons to straighten him out, but they defiantly will!



Reviewer: FirstAmazon Signed
Date: February 13, 2020 Title: Chapter 17: Chapter 17

Well, well, well I'm loving all these suddenly reborn Finwëions! The rebels are coming back to us, little by little! What a great chapter! But oh my Maeglin </3 ! When he finally had found some inner peace, he's torn from Elmírion's side - who will also be crushed, oh poor things!

And I didn't like the man Turgon has become, but I can feel that Idril's punishment, however harsh, seems to be bearing fruits: I don't despise him anymore, because it feels to me that he does regret his previous behavior. Plus, to unravel some of his thoughts also brings light to why he was the way he was - and again, you do it brilliantly. I actually feel sorry for him, forgotten by everyone in his family (which doesn't mean I forgive what he did lol).



Author's Response:
What a great chapter! But oh my Maeglin </3 ! When he finally had found some inner peace, he's torn from Elmírion's side - who will also be crushed, oh poor things!"

I think I'm the most evil towards my favs lol  and Maeglin is definitely one of my babies :)  He was one the characters who I liked best even before I started writing.  I don't know if you've experienced this yet, but sometimes you fall in love with a character while writing them.  Eariendil was that for me, big time.  And Finarfin.  Turgon, tho, Turgon I felt pity for, but, even after digging into his head, couldn't really LIKE.  But I get what you mean about understand him better now, after this chapter, even though that doesn't forgive what he did.  I felt the same way when writing it.  And, yeah, his punishment has had some positive effects -tho he didn't really change until Maeglin's appearance.  I rather think that's going to be how it is for him.  He's spent centuries lying to himself, he needs other people now in order to peel away the veil, but the beauty of Maeglin was that Turgon didn't already hate/resent him the way he does Fingon.  I think, if it had been Fingon Turgon was forced to spend time with, Turgon would have only hardened himself against him, blinding himself to the truth.  But I will say, that I'd like to see his character growth continue.  It's going to be up to him tho, he has to be the one willing to change.



Reviewer: FirstAmazon Signed
Date: February 14, 2020 Title: Chapter 20: Chapter 20

Amazing two chapters, Beth! I'm loving all the interactions between Finarfin and Finrod, and then seeing fiery, fierce Aegnor. Of course, Maeglin and Elmírion, but I can't help thinking their relation will be somehow damaged when all Maeglin's memories come back, or when Celebrimbor is reborn. I recall Maeglin was one of the few people he ever loved (if not the only one), and seeing him involved with his son will be very... weird hahaha no doubt he will feel betrayed (again) :(


Finrod looked away from the intimate moment, and found his father watching the pair with tenderness and sorrow, as if he looked not only on what was, but what could have been as he gazed at the descendents of his two proud brothers.


THIS. My god, breaking my heart into a million pieces - as you so frequently do. And this, coming from the "outsider" Finarfin is so beautiful, so redemptive! He doesn't hold any grudges, only loneliness. Oh, I love whom he has become!


And he's encounter with Turgon was shocking! All the tension, poor Finarfin! But even if I wish Turgon punished for what he did, I'm sure he went to speak on Maeglin's behalf, which is already something good. (Plus, is Turgon even higher than Maedhros? This is something I never foresaw!). 


You have me on the edge of my seat! Can't wait to see what's next!



Author's Response:
"Amazing two chapters, Beth!"
Thank you :)  
Of course, Maeglin and Elmírion, but I can't help thinking their relation will be somehow damaged when all Maeglin's memories come back, or when Celebrimbor is reborn. I recall Maeglin was one of the few people he ever loved (if not the only one), and seeing him involved with his son will be very... weird hahaha no doubt he will feel betrayed (again) :("

I confess, I hadn't thought of their relationship being damaged with Maeglin's memories -or Elmirion's-- since they never knew each other before, but Maeglin IS going to have process what happened to him.  He was tortured and he does feel a great guilt for not being 'stronger,' but Elmririon will be right there by his side.  You are correct tho that Celebraibor had a bit of a thing for Maeglin :wink: and only didn't act on it because he knew he would leave Gondolin, so that wouldn't have been fair to Maeglin.  But Celebrimbor didn't feel like Maeglin was his, nor can I see him envious of Elmririon.  To Cleebrimbor, Elmiriron is everything that is good and pure, and deserves the best, while Celebrimbor will not beleive the same for himself, not until he heals from the guilt of opening his home to his son's murderer -not to mention when he hears about what forging the Rings led to!  Poor Celebrimbor!  

"Oh, I love whom he has become!"

I love hearing this!  He's grown into such a lovely person, I want everyone to see it -and they will!  Well, most will, I can't say if Finwe or Indis will get their heads on straight.

"But even if I wish Turgon punished for what he did, I'm sure he went to speak on Maeglin's behalf, which is already something good."

Yeah.  He gets one point for speaking up for Maeglin, but minus a thousand for the shit he did to Finarfin!  (And yet, Finarfin would forgive him if he believed it would help get their family back.  Turgon doesn't deserve to kiss Finarfin's feet.)

(Plus, is Turgon even higher than Maedhros? This is something I never foresaw!). "

Ah, well, you might be right.  Is Maedhros described as the tallest Finweion?  I just remember that Turgon was Very tall, so maybe Turgon is 2nd place.

You have me on the edge of my seat! Can't wait to see what's next!"

I finally have a new chapter out :hand flourishes: enjoy :)



Reviewer: FirstAmazon Signed
Date: February 18, 2020 Title: Chapter 13: Chapter 13

You mean that he could be into guys?  Yeah, he’s defiantly bi.  And Caranthir being his brother won’t bother him.  It’s the state of his relationship with Caranthir that’s the problem.  Caranthir essentially spent centuries pushing Curufin away and often being quite nasty doing it.  There’s a lot of broken trust and pain there.  We will have to see if Curufin is willing to give Caranthir a chance to try and fix what he broke or not.  Curufin has a lot of his own issues to work on as well –this whole family needs mega therapy lol


 


Certainly! Curufin's rebirth is one of the most anticipated ones, because of all the people and emotions involved in his life.


 


Oh yes, gods, sometimes I just think how many problems can this people have, being so old and having so much time to reflect about their behavior and characteristics, it never ceases to amaze me how much damaged and utterly proud - that they "refuse" to look inside to mend the wounds - these people is xD nah, I'm kidding, but you know it's true hahhaha


 



Aww!  I’m glad to hear it :) I was just thinking the other day about Eluréd, and was trying to pin down hobbies/interests/get a fully scope of his character, and I realized he doesn’t have any.  Not really.  He has the potential to have some –like I image he’d be into sewing/embroidery after his time with the Haladin—but his life has been about survival and trying not to drown under the weight of everything he’s been through up to now.  He’s a CSA survivor, and will carry those scars always, but I hope Caranthir/others he meets in Valinor will be able to help him find who he is outside of what has been done to him.


 


I think it's awesome that Eluréd is a total mystery, fey and unpredictable! That's why his relation with Caranthir seems all the more special. He let himself be taken care of, I think this is the first and most important step for "healing" he can have - though I think he will never be fully healed.



Author's Response:
""Certainly! Curufin's rebirth is one of the most anticipated ones, because of all the people and emotions involved in his life."
Haha!  I'm glad to hear it!  He's one of the one's I'm more exctied to get to too!  There is so much of his story left to tell and a lot of character development that needs to come.

"Oh yes, gods, sometimes I just think how many problems can this people have, being so old and having so much time to reflect about their behavior and characteristics, it never ceases to amaze me how much damaged and utterly proud - that they "refuse" to look inside to mend the wounds - these people is xD nah, I'm kidding, but you know it's true hahhaha"

I get you.  I think its the challenge of trying to write an immortal character when we ourselves are mortal.  It's hard to grasp that immense length of time.  But I think, for me, it's important to remember their crazy good memories on top of this.  If they were Human immortals, their memories would fade with time, but as they don't, I think it's even harder for them to grow because nothing is ever forgotten, the sharp edges of grief is not rounded with time, that makes it a lot harder to move past things and look to the future when the past seems so close.

"I think it's awesome that Eluréd is a total mystery, fey and unpredictable! That's why his relation with Caranthir seems all the more special. He let himself be taken care of, I think this is the first and most important step for "healing" he can have - though I think he will never be fully healed."

I think you are right: he will never be filly healed.  I love that he comes off as fey and mysterious!  And yeah, the very fact that it's almost impossible for him to let other people in (right now at least), makes his relationship with Caranthir all the more precious.  I mean, when you think about it, it was one of the very people who set his brother and him into the downward spiral of their first life, a Feanorion, that he comes to trust.  I just wish I could promise some kind of happy ending where he is healthy and living his life to the fullest, but I don't think I can :(  But there will be hope!  There always has to be hope :)



Reviewer: FirstAmazon Signed
Date: February 18, 2020 Title: Chapter 1: Chapter 1

Thank you :hugs:  And yes, I am right there with you!  It all comes down to the communication!  Like, things are never going to turn fluffy between these two, but right now they can’t see that they both want the same thing!  :fingers crossed for their rebirth: Only, you know I won’t make it THAT easy, will I :wink, wink:

 

I don't expect them to be fluffy, not really, but at least conversational LOL and I know you won't make it easy, which also makes me dread their reencounter, since R&U literally broke my heart. I don't think I can take that level of emotional damage anymore hahaha  (seriously, though, I can't remember it without a knot in my throat). And it's something your story does to me: I get so emotionally involved that sometimes I fear reading for what it'll do to the rest of my day - sometimes week lol.

 

Ha!  I am an evil tease! (I’m trying to get better at not spilling the beans and spoiling!)  I like how you point out all the relationships crossing over and through the others!  So true, and it only makes things more complicated :)  I think that when we’ve got immortal Elves on our hands, many/most of which have outlived at least one lover, it’s inevitable that they will end up with a tidy collection by the end (looking at you Glorfindel).  Almost all the characters have the potential for having more than one lover by the time this thing is through.  But I doubt I will write a relationship that’s, say, a threesome (tho I’m not saying one won’t pop up in the writing….oh wait one already did! Eol/Miriel/Finwe/Anneth….ok so, anything goes :throws confetti:), but what I’m trying to say is that I could see Fingon/Glorfindel or Maedhros/Maglor hooking up (or all four!), but I don’t see it being a long-term four-member romantic relationship, you know?

 

Gods, I’m explaining this so badly!  I hope it will just turn out better in the actually story!

 

No, you explained it just fine and of course I understood because that foursome is something that I envisioned and I'm kind of waiting for :grins: hahaha (especially because Glorfindel himself has that particular fantasy) Oh, poor Glorfindel, his heart will burst with joy if that ever comes to happen!

 

And yes, I understood they can have many lovers, but they will bind themselves with only one, like Erestor/Lindir, Maglor/Glorfindel - and I'm sure they don't know it, but it's possible that Fingon/Maedhros are bound at that depth as well, right? So I understand that they may have their fun, but willingly or not (and correct me if I'm wrong) there's only one that could completely feel the other's heart.



Author's Response:
"I don't expect them to be fluffy, not really, but at least conversational LOL and I know you won't make it easy, which also makes me dread their reencounter, since R&U literally broke my heart. I don't think I can take that level of emotional damage anymore hahaha  (seriously, though, I can't remember it without a knot in my throat). And it's something your story does to me: I get so emotionally involved that sometimes I fear reading for what it'll do to the rest of my day - sometimes week lol."

I feel like I should appoligize for inflicting tramuma on you lol  But I know what you mean, it's the beauty of stories :)  Sometimes it's just impossible to get them our of your heads!


"No, you explained it just fine and of course I understood because that foursome is something that I envisioned and I'm kind of waiting for :grins: hahaha (especially because Glorfindel himself has that particular fantasy) Oh, poor Glorfindel, his heart will burst with joy if that ever comes to happen!"

I'm not the only one, then!  Sometimes I wonder if I'm going crazy with all the pairing and sexual attractions but, hey, it would be boring if they didn't spice things up at times lol and how can I refuse them when they have been waiting millennium for this? lol

"- and I'm sure they don't know it, but it's possible that Fingon/Maedhros are bound at that depth as well, right? So I understand that they may have their fun, but willingly or not (and correct me if I'm wrong) there's only one that could completely feel the other's heart."

You are right that Fingon/Maedhros are also bound like that.  I think it depends on the character, honestly.  Like, for most I only see one person holding the place as life-partner, but other characters are more flexible.  It really depends on what that character needs...but the more I write these characters and realize exactly how long and complicated their lives and relationships have gotten, the easier it is to see them have meaningful relationships with multiple people (tho I do like them have that one central one in the middle, kind-of holding all the rest of them together).