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Book II of of A Crucible Of Stars
Following on from events in A Light in the East, Legolas continues his journey south with Vanim
Characters: Glorfindel, Legolas, OFC, OMC, Sauron, Thranduil
Content: Action/Adventure, Angst, AU, BDSM, Drama, Dubcon, Erotica, Explicit Sex, Hurt/Comfort, Mpreg, Rape/Non-con, Slash
Series: A Crucible Of Stars
Chapters: 51 | Completed: No | Word count: 255137 | Read count: 188346
Published: June 30, 2011 | Updated: March 16, 2017
Date: July 27, 2011 Title: Chapter 2: Chapter 2 ~ The Fruits Of The Soul ~
“How would you know?” Glorfindel asked, but without heat.
One of the many reasons I love your writing is that, even with all the absorbing characterization and action-adventure drama and multiple back-stories and converging plot-lines at play here, you still manage to stick in delicious little lines like this.
Always currants, raisins, and sultanas in your puddings!!
Always currants, raisins, and sultanas in your puddings!!
Haha. I am so glad you think so! :) Thank-you for a lovely comment!
Date: July 28, 2011 Title: Chapter 2: Chapter 2 ~ The Fruits Of The Soul ~
“It is a Greenwood arrow!” Legolas struggled to pull it clear. “I have to...!” .... Legolas took the broken arrow, pressed the feathers to his face. He closed his eyes. Tears spread in a gleaming fan under the long lashes.
This reminded me, heartbreakingly, of how Legolas called out for his adar during his rape--- and Thranduil wasn't there.
Oh yes, Ebbingnight :( That was a truly heart-rending part of Ethuil'waew. Legolas did (and does) need his father's love so much, and I was thinking of that when I wrote of his touching the arrow. :(
Date: August 28, 2011 Title: Chapter 3: Chapter 3 ~ Memory Is A Doorway ~
Legolas closed his eyes. "Are you sorry?" he asked.
Astonishing what a nail-biting cliffhanger such a simple question is!
Thank-you, Ebbingnight. It was not really meant to be a cliffhanger :) but Glorfindel does need to face what he did, and that will take more time. Since it was close to the end of the chapter, I decided to put it in another.
Date: August 28, 2011 Title: Chapter 3: Chapter 3 ~ Memory Is A Doorway ~
Ah, but I do view it as a cliffhanger of a sort: Glorfindel won't lie, that we know for certain, and it's not certain that he can be sorry in a meaningful way, as it's almost certain that he would never have sired G
Date: September 13, 2011 Title: Chapter 4: Chapter 4 ~ Concourse ~
“He will follow me,” the prince murmured. “It does not matter where I go. He will find me, will he not?” His eyes looked hunted, and though Glorfindel could not see his expression, Maglor felt something in his aura intensify, as if Legolas' words had ripped at a nerve. The words were that of a child pursued by a monster, and there was no glamor in such an image.
And that is exactly what I trust Glorfindel will be thinking about now as they begin their journey toward this final rendezvous. Legolas couldn't have found a more telling way to express what's wrong between them if he'd thought it out with both hands for a month. Telling truth to power....
Author's Response: Legolas couldn't have found a more telling way to express what's wrong between them if he'd thought it out with both hands for a month. Telling truth to power....
Yes, Ebbingnight, when I was looking back at this, I thought: Glorfindel said he could not explain only in words, but I think Legolas has explained everything in his tone, and it is a blow to Glorfindel. As Maglor thought, there's no glamor to being thought a monster, and I am sure Glorfindel *will* be thinking about this now. It should make him squirm, really.
I am not sure about this being *the* final rendezvous, but it is the plan. d;-)
Thank-you, as always for reviewing.
Date: September 14, 2011 Title: Chapter 4: Chapter 4 ~ Concourse ~
As I reread this chapter, I start to wonder whether even Legolas can rescue Glorfindel (because that's one of the several subtexts in your wonderfully "textured" story here). At this point, we see that Glorfindel the Beloved seems to have no real remorse for his repeated rapes, no especial empathy for his victim, no desire to change or make amends---- nothing except a desire to possess 'his' son and to 'win' whatever else he thinks is his right.
In fact, at this point, he has much more in common with Sauron than with Maglor, who, we know very well, were he not out of his head, would never have raped a defenseless victim, let alone done it twice, and then put the matter completely out of his mind as nothing of consequence.
This long journey may not be long enough, at that.
Author's Response: Ooh, you made me jump. I was just on reviewing. :)
Yes, Ebbingnight, your comment sums up one of the reasons why I decided this story had to be a series: Glorfindel has a very long road to travel, and in a sense no-one can really rescue him except himself, which will take time. Esteliel's series covers in wonderfully, and I can't give the subject less importance.
Date: October 09, 2011 Title: Chapter 5: Chapter 5 ~ A Time of Pain and Healing
“What did Thranduil want with thee?” he wondered.
“To kill me,” Legolas shrank inward. “I saw his face.”
“Thou canst not know,” Vanim
Date: October 13, 2011 Title: Chapter 5: Chapter 5 ~ A Time of Pain and Healing
Author's Response: And Thranduil isn't even aware of what's he done.
Well, I think he might be, Ebbingnight, because he did threaten to kill Legolas when he found he was pregnant, if he did not leave. That is all Legolas can think of in relation to his father, that the last time he saw him, he did threaten to kill him, so the idea of Thranduil wanting to help him would not occur to him. I agree it is dreadful, and Thranduil as much as Glorfindel both cruelly wounded Legolas. :(
Oh, I quite agree that Thranduil knows quite well what's he's done to Legolas, but he doesn't know what he's done, if you can see the fine distinction that I'm drawing here. Like stabbing someone and seeing the blood, but not seeing (or wanting to know about) the deep internal damage.
Sorry for the long delay in response, but I've been without teh internets for a bit. (And terribly afraid that I'd miss a new chapter, by the way!)
Author's Response: he doesn't know what he's done, if you can see the fine distinction that I'm drawing here. Like stabbing someone and seeing the blood, but not seeing (or wanting to know about) the deep internal damage.
Yes, you are right, Ebbingnight, and I do see what you mean. Knowing is not always *knowing,* and not seeing the evidence before you. Sometimes, you have to be forced to see what you've done. And of course, some people are conscienceless, and don't care, but I don't believe Thranduil is one of those, as they tend to be psychopaths.
Aww, sorry you have been without internet; I am glad it's back now.
You haven't missed anything yet; I am back on Magnificat at the mo', and that next chapter will be up soon.
Thank-you for coming on again to comment.
Date: October 16, 2011 Title: Chapter 6: Chapter 6 ~ The Years of Storm ~
It was an ill thing when a child had to grow without one or both of their parents as the king knew well, for he had not been much older than this child when Doriath fell, and his own mother had died there.
And I'm thinking here that of course Legolas as a small child would never have been allowed to touch his father at all....
Author's Response: Legolas as a small child would never have been allowed to touch his father at all....
:( I don't imagine he did, and to be ignored, as much as physically cruelty can affect a child deeply.
Date: October 27, 2011 Title: Chapter 8: Chapter 8 ~ Naked To Truth ~
Darkness rising: Thranduil's "plan" will kill Legolas as surely as he killed Elv
Date: November 19, 2011 Title: Chapter 9: Chapter 9 ~ Introspection ~
Each day, the soldiers cut swathes of long grass and laid it as bedding, and Legolas lay like a fawn in a nest, G
Date: December 19, 2011 Title: Chapter 10: Chapter 10 ~ Strange and Fragile Barriers ~
“I should have had more control. You were very young.”
Although he is speaking to Bainalph, Thranduil has his banishment of his youngest son in mind also, I think. The King is so lost, it's almost as though he's using Bainalph as a divining rod here, because he can't bear to think of Legolas directly. And, given how lost and alone Legolas feels now when he thinks of his father, it's probably just as well that Thranduil can't reach his mind. It might be more than he can bear, as hunted and fearful as he is. And, that of course, is precisely what Thranduil needs to understand in order to see what he has done: just as Glorfindel is beginning to.
And this, of course, is only a single set of the several strange, fragile barriers we find in this wonderful chapter!
Author's Response: Oh, thank-you for reviewing, Ebbingnight. I didn't think any-one was reading this or the other story any more.
I think you have exactly touched on what I was trying to say in this chapter (which was difficult, because Thranduil is 'lost' and so is Legolas, and yes, the king is using Bainalph as a divining rod, (wonderful way of putting it), to try to come near to his son. For Glorfindel as well as Thranduil, what they have done, for whatever reasons, is not easy to face, and nor should it be.
Thank-you so much for reading, and for taking the time to comment.
Date: December 20, 2011 Title: Chapter 10: Chapter 10 ~ Strange and Fragile Barriers ~
Just a bit of a meta-comment here, dear: in my opinion, it's getting harder to review this because the interweaving stories have now become so richly woven that it's hard to pick out one thread to comment on without being tugged at by all the other threads to which it connects. For instance, I start out thinking about Thranduil and how I may have judged him too harshly, given what we see in this chapter, and then I think back to the unspoken atrocities suffered by Glorfindel's men by Thranduil's troops prior to his assault on Legolas in the Greenwood, and that train of thought leads me to wonder what Sauron in his new guise might do if Van and his men end up being attacked on both fronts... as seems very likely. And, meanwhile, I'm musing about how those celebrated reputations (Hero, Kinslayer, Slave of Sauron) repeatedly seem to misrepresent the real actions here of those who bear them. What makes me realize that although we do have a wonderful map of the journeys here (thank for sharing that!), we don't necessarily see them clearly--- until they are finished. At which point I will no doubt be better equipped to review this, lol!
Anyway, that's my excuse for not reviewing as often as the richness of these chapters themselves deserve. Thank goodness for my fellow-reviewers, who so often show me what I have missed!
Author's Response: Hi Ebbingnight, and thank-you so much for sharing your thoughts.
it's getting harder to review this because the interweaving stories have now become so richly woven that it's hard to pick out one thread to comment on without being tugged at by all the other threads to which it connects
I hope this is a good thing.
I am hoping to have the journeys over with fairly soon,at least so that it gets into more familiar territory (Ithilien) but they do take time, and are important for other reasons, such as them allowing the characters time to think. If it was just one set of people, I could chivvy it on a little, but not so much when it is three separate sets of characters. Thank-you for bearing with me.
Date: December 21, 2011 Title: Chapter 10: Chapter 10 ~ Strange and Fragile Barriers ~
"I hope this is a good thing."
It's a very good thing: I wouldn't miss a step of "our" journey" for the world (especially for the world that you are creating here!)
Author's Response: wouldn't miss a step of "our" journey" for the world (especially for the world that you are creating here!)
Thank-you, Ebbingnight! That is such a boost!
Date: January 12, 2012 Title: Chapter 11: Chapter 11 ~ The Winds of the Night ~
I loved the spirit seeking made possible by "the gift of the land" as it seems the only way in which Thranduil can "find" Legolas (and yet I am thinking, sadly, that this fleeting contact was the stuff of Legolas's "nightmare" in the preceding chapter.)
Most of all I loved the way in which Thranduil is experiencing much the same condemnation that Glorfindel is. To have Sauron's son, the enemy Southron captain, and his own subject Bainalph all chasten him in different ways for exiling Legolas must be hard to bear. And, of course, the knowledge that he is so like Glorindel must be even harder....
Author's Response: Thank-you for reviewing, Ebbingnight.:)
We will see Legolas' response in the next chapter. Thranduil said nothing, and perhaps does not even know all that passed from him to Legolas, but I do think it would have been a shock; I hope not as terrible a one, although Vanim
Date: April 14, 2012 Title: Chapter 12: Chapter 12 ~ Fathers and Sons ~
“I am not sure that fathers and sons are ever lost to one another,” Vanim
Date: April 15, 2012 Title: Chapter 12: Chapter 12 ~ Fathers and Sons ~
More seriously, though: things I loved most about this chapter:
Sauron's proprietary perspective on Van: it is chilling how well he knows his son--- and how well he can draw and drain power from him
Legolas's perspective on Thranduil: his "journey" here is broadening both his emotional and mental horizons -- and we are only now beginning to understand how necessary this is for not only his own survival, but for that of so many others
But most of all I adored that quite unexpected "perspective" that suddenly came to Maglor out of the void, and out of love. It reminded me that, although terrible mistakes can be made, attempts can be also made at recovery and reconciliation... and this is essential to our story too.
Author's Response: we are only now beginning to understand how necessary this is for not only his own survival, but for that of so many others
Thank-you for noticing this, Ebbingnight - though you always notice everything, even things I don't realize I've written! Legolas in this chapter was more a catalyst for subsequent events, which was why I didn't write it from his POV, but showed him through others. Of course, whatever he thinks of himself, he is growing stronger, and he has spent time around Van, watched him, subconsciously as a leader, what he does, and though his reaction, his instant 'We must go,' was visceral, he began to think, to realize what would happen later. So this time, he is running, but not for himself - so he's growing, changing.
attempts can be also made at recovery and reconciliation.
Yes, and they have to be, and to be permitted, too, in time.
Sauron knows Vanim
Date: May 10, 2012 Title: Chapter 12: Chapter 12 ~ Fathers and Sons ~
But nervous colts need a light touch, and neither Thranduil nor Glorfindel had handled this little colt well.
And, of course, Sauron could doubtless find several ways to make Legolas even "want" to serve him willingly... if he can separate the youth and child from the rest of their party. Because, at this point, simply sacrificing them as he'd originally contemplated would be such a waste, wouldn't it?
Author's Response: Hi Ebbingnight. :)
It would be a waste, but not ultimately for Sauron - at least this is his thought at the moment. There's a lot that fascinates him and he wants to discover, but he does already know the power of blood magic. He knows he could blackmail Legolas as he does his son, but at the moment, he knows Legolas needs to trust him. Thank-you for your comment :)
Date: September 16, 2012 Title: Chapter 13: Chapter 13 ~ Bonfires of Grief ~
The unsettling thing about this chapter is that I'm starting to trust Sauron's malign intelligence as a source of insights about Van. Since we seldom have an opportunity to get inside Van's head, due to his overwhelming efforts at control and self-control, his father's perspective (especially about those things that Van himself hates about himself as inherited from his father) is fascinating and credible. I can well believe that Van has even more power than he realizes. And yet I hope I know better than to trust Sauron the Deceiver, least of all about his own son!!
Author's Response: his father's perspective (especially about those things that Van himself hates about himself as inherited from his father) is fascinating and credible.
Sauron does know Van very well, although he's not seen him 'free' before. However, he tends always to think through a filter of Van as his 'project', and how he can use him, so although his assessments are acute they are based on that.
He probably is right about Van unconsciously channelling his Auni powers into human attributes, warrior skills, willpower, even his charisma that causes people to follow him (his own people, I mean, not the Drejim, although he knew well how to use fear to influence them).
Thank-you so much for reading and commenting, Ebbingnight. I appreciate it so much.
Date: September 19, 2012 Title: Chapter 13: Chapter 13 ~ Bonfires of Grief ~
Learning that some choices could be painful was part of Legolas' growth, inevitable but forced on him by this perilous journey, and powers that Maglor himself could not understand.
This is very true, but, thanks to Maglor and Van, it's also true that Legolas is learning on this journey that sexual domination doesn't necessarily have to mean humiliation, harm, and hurtfulness, either.
So he's growing in any number of ways. When they finally meet again, Glorfindel is likely to find him quite a bit less vulnerable now.
Author's Response: thanks to Maglor and Van, it's also true that Legolas is learning on this journey that sexual domination doesn't necessarily have to mean humiliation, harm, and hurtfulness, either.
Yes, that is true; they are the right sort of people to teach him that. He is changing, and more than he thinks, because his attention is so focused on Gil, and now on making sure that his father and Glorfindel don't meet, that he's probably unaware of those changes. Thank-you for another insightful review, Ebbingnight (:
Date: November 01, 2012 Title: Chapter 14: Chapter 14 ~ Songs in the Wasteland ~
I read this on Halloween night, and this bit made me shiver:
After his initial curiosity, he appeared to take little notice of the child, but G
Date: January 21, 2013 Title: Chapter 15: Chapter 15 ~ To The Edge of the Shadow ~
Many chapters ago, when Elrond urged Glorfindel to kill Vanim
Date: April 26, 2013 Title: Chapter 16: Chapter 16 ~ Convergence ~
I have been away for a while, so I had missed reviewing this chapter, which is both heartbreaking and heroic. Suddenly Legolas, in the pursuit of his son, becomes the exemplar of what every parent should be and (clearly, even in this story, with its several abandoned and abused sons grown up) often is not. Legolas shows here that it's not about how strong you are, or wise you are, or brave you are: it's how much you love and are willing to do for love. He does not need Maglor, nor Glorfindel, nor Van, nor even Thranduil to tell him that now. Whatever happens after this, Legolas will no longer be a pawn: he is a power (though not a Power, lol!) to be reckoned with.
Author's Response: Hi, Ebbingnight. Thank-you for reviewing!
Legolas shows here that it's not about how strong you are, or wise you are, or brave you are: it's how much you love and are willing to do for love.
I am so pleased that comes across, as I was trying to show that.
Whatever happens after this, Legolas will no longer be a pawn: he is a power (though not a Power, lol!) to be reckoned with
he does not know that yet, but it is true.
Date: June 23, 2013 Title: Chapter 17: Chapter 17 ~ Some Things One Cannot Run From ~
If it weren't for the fact that Legolas is very likely right (that defeating Sauron will require all of them), I would be okay with Shelob eating Glorfindel in the next chapter, because that at least would provide some measure of redemption for him at last, after what he has done. Because Legolas is obviously reaching the end of his journey, and I just don't see that the Glorfindel we have seen so far in this story can offer anything that Legolas (or Gil) really needs. Even Thranduil has changed more than Glorfindel (we can tell that Legolas's involuntary flinching away from his touch touches a nerve), so the trick here (beyond all the tricks that you have in store that we won't see coming--- after all, you're writing about Sauron, the master of lies!)-- is to make us think that Legolas would be better off with him than without him. Legolas has now "the look of one battered beyond fear"--- and what will Glorfindel see in him then?
Author's Response: If it weren't for the fact that Legolas is very likely right (that defeating Sauron will require all of them), I would be okay with Shelob eating Glorfindel in the next chapter, because that at least would provide some measure of redemption for him at last,
Don't think I did not consider it, but although this seems like the end of Legolas' journey, and maybe the story, it's definitely not. :)
I am not so sure I want Legolas to end up with Glorfindel, and never was. This is a story about people battling more with their own selves than a romance, I think, (including Legolas, though his is more of an evolving, as he is so young). Van is who he always is, Maglor is returning to what he was, so the only people really who have to come to grips with what they are and have done is Glorfindel and Thranduil. I do agree that there's no way Legolas would benefit in any way from being with Glorfindel at the moment.
Thank-you, Ebbingnight, for your review :)
Date: June 29, 2013 Title: Chapter 17: Chapter 17 ~ Some Things One Cannot Run From ~
Just thought I'd mention that we do notice that Thranduil called Gil his grandson, in case you think that slipped by us! So that's a little progress for Thranduil at least....
Author's Response: Ah, thank-you Ebbingnight. That was not a dramatic or revelatory bit of writing, just slipped in there, so I am not sure Thranduil even realised what he said, but his heart did :)