I lol'd at the board game chaos. And ugh, I knew Fëanor was going to make a mess of that conversation...I was so angry on poor Fingon's behalf, but cheering for Maedhros, because he finally feels strong enough to say these things. Hopefully Maglor or Nerdanel or someone can resolve the situation next chapter :/
Apologies for the short comment but my brain is mush right now. Still loving this, Neyla :)
This is great fun!
I hope you forgive me for saying that while I generally love modern AUs, I tend to be a bit wary with coffee shop or college AUs as so many of them just bear witness of the author's lack of imagination. Your story therefore was a very pleasant surprise, as you're nailing all imaginable requirements for a believable, entertaining and well-written modern AU down just perfectly. I had a lot of fun discovering what is what in your 'verse here, and to make the connections to the canon ideas behind it, and, mainly, to see your characters work out in this setting. I'm not as familiar with some of the Fëanorios as I could wish, so I'm likely not a very good judge, but everybody feels just rigth for me, in a delightful marriage with classic Silmarillion settings and history and modern elements.
I also really like how Maedhros and Fingon's attraction to each other unfolds and a budding relationship slowly unfolds.
Off to read on!
Author's Response: Thank you Ysilme! I'm so glad you are reading this and enjoying it! I'm gratified that you are finding this believable and entertaining. I'm having fun weaving the canon in but trying to make it less bleak than the source material. I started this so that Maedhros and Fingon could have a chance at happiness. The other Fëanorions and Finweions just wouldn't tolerate being left out and so have barged right into Fingon/Maedhros' story!
Yay, an update!
LOL at Fingolfin being oblivious that this is not a good time to talk to Fingon. And this made me choke:
"I think they're cute," Aredhel said, walking up to pat her father on the cheek. "It shows love can survive into old age, even with troublesome kids about."
"Who are you calling old?" Fingolfin sputtered, his glare now directed at his unrepentant daughter.
This gave me a little pang, too:
Fingon nodded. "I'd like that. If you've got the time, Dad."
It brought a pang, hearing Fingon say that. There had been many years when he didn't have the time, when work had consumed him. When the goal of being a partner at the firm had been his main focus.
I sympathise with Fingon - I've been the child of that parent - but also with Fingolfin, just trying to do his best for his family. Lovely, subtle, complex family dynamics you're weaving in here.
Sneaky little parallel between the chess game and their conversation, too ;)
I like that Fingolfin realises he's made a mistake and the conversation is going rapidly south; his self-awareness makes an interesting contrast to Feanor. And utterly fascinating, the history between them - I like the little nods to canon, but it's all so believable in the context of your modern AU, too.
Really great scene, Nelya - a lot of emotions coming to a head, and all skilfully handled, by you and by your lovely characters ;)
Author's Response: Thanks Narya!
Yeah Fëanor doesn't have an exclusive on not listening to spousal advice! ;)
The personal cost of work and family is one I am familiar with--it's a familiar family dynamic and it seemed to make sense for Fingolfin--he's done a good job, tried to find balance but the second guessing never goes away.
Glad you liked the chess game/verbal sparring parallel!
There are so many similarities between Fingolfin and Fëanor but I do see introspection and self-awareness as being more of a Fingolfin trait. I'm glad the canon adjacent storyline worked for you--it leaves their relationship as tumultuous and fraught. There is a lot of emotion on both sides--flashbacks seem to work the best for exposing their complicated past--just like Maedhros in chapter 17. Thanks so much for reading and commenting.
I did a lot of squee-ing here; I really enjoyed this focus on the older generation. I know you said it was a struggle to write but it's paid off. They're brilliant. Fëanor and Nerdanel are so beautifully written; the scars from all their difficult years sit just under the surface of their dialogue, rising and flaring as soon as the conversation strays out of safe waters - and yet they're so united, and understand each other so well. They way Fëanor knew exactly what she needed in her workshop was so touching, and she knew exactly how he'd react about Fingon and how to manage it. Fabulous.
And then the not-quite-mirror of the conversation between Fingolfin and Anairë. Fin! She calls him Fin. So cute.
I also liked having a focus on Turgon. I felt a little sorry for him, trying to figure out where he fits and what his vocation is - that's how I see him in the canon universe too.
The Maedhros/Fingon scene at the end was interesting too; we haven't seen this dynamic before, the sort of quiet disappointment, but weirdly I enjoyed it. I feel like it shows how their relationship is growing and maturing, and that in the end they bring it back to how much they love each other.
"I am an idiot," Maedhros said.
"Yeah, you are. But you're my idiot," Fingon said
Author's Response: Oh I'm so glad it made you squee!!
Thanks so much for your words about Fëanor and Nerdanel! You've put it just how I think of it--their scars are just below the surface and they do flare easily but they all are so well matched and just get each other, understand each other so deeply.
I'm gratified by the Turgon love--I'm so glad readers are enjoying him.
And yes you've nailed it--Fingon and Maedhros have shifted into the next level of their relationship and it's deepening into more complicated emotions that are more nuanced too. Thanks!!
Ooh! Feanor and Fingolfin. Exciting! :D
I could immerse myself in these two forever.
Firstly. I loved the dynamics between Feanor and Nerdanel. He seems a very loving and doting husband, and still appreciates her; her beauty and personality, considering their past problems. Its good to see they have mended their relationship and have come through stronger than ever, although it seems Feanor can still be trying at times. But he wouldn't be Feanor if he wasn't a tad difficult.
* He had found her in the kitchen and he had silently paused in the doorway, gazing at her as she sat, unaware of his presence. Feanor's eyes caught the tumble of her brilliant red hair as it cascaded down her back, the sharp angle of her profile, the curve of her hand as she rested her chin on it.*
Now I understand why Feanor and Fingolfin had a falling out. Or rather Feanor did.
I love how its only Feanor that has a problem with Fingolfin. Nerdanel appears only to have kind things to say about hi, yet I can understand how Feanor feels about having the very people who killed his father walking free, and he has to blame someone right?
Fingolfin and Anaire are just as adorable in the way they treat each other too.
'Godfather!' Finwe was Fingolfin's godfather! This story is just getting way more interesting with every chapter.
I really enjoyed the heart to heart Turgon had with his father. You don't get to see Turgon interacting with Fingolfin much in other stories. So it was a real treat to have them chat about Turgon's future to the 'love of his life.'
Live and learn, Maedhros! Live and learn. I know it was a bit of a shock to Fingon to learn that Maedhros and Fingolfin are already acquainted, but I think it was more oversight on Maedhros' part than him actually keeping that revelation from Fingon.
I really enjoyed this chapter. Nelya! Thank you. Looking forward to the next. :)
Author's Response: Oh I'm so glad you liked this! Yes it was time to tackle writing the parents!
Fëanor and Nerdanel have a complicated relationship and history. This is a happier version since it's my AU so they work very hard to stay together and work through their issues. I think their love was incredibly deep and I dont think they ever stopped loving each other in canon. They are just doing a better job of living through it together here!
Yes kept that Miriel-Finwë-Indis triangle but tweaked it a bit. The godfather bit makes it closer than friends but keeps the spirit of canon.
Turgon has really grown on me as a character. I'm glad that scene worked and didn't seem like filler--it helps us get to know Turgon and Fingolfin.
I'm so glad you enjoyed this chapter!
Oh! Dear Maglor! I hope he finds some happiness soon. He's seems so melancholy. So alone, like the third wheel when with his brothers.
Tyelko meeting Fingolfin for the first time was a treasure. Gees I love your Tyelko. He just gets on with everyone doesn't he? And has already impressed Fingolfin.
And then Tyelko does it again; reassuring Aredhel that Maedhros would never hurt her brother. For a moment there I thought Aredhel was about to call it quits, with how angry she was and I felt quite sorry for Tyelko, trying to desperately smooth things over with her. He's really smitten isn't he. These two are so gorgeous together. I love reading about them.
I'm looking forward to Fingon meeting Feanor and Fingolfin and Feanor meeting up again. That should be a treat. :)
Anyway Nelya. So sorry I took so long reviewing. This TRSB18 challenge is really taking up my time.
Great chapter. Looking forward to the next!
Author's Response: Sorry I didn't respond Gabriel! I must have missed this!
Maglor will eventually share his story with us. And yes he feels very much like a third wheel.
I love Tyelko too. He's not going to let this intimidate him--he deals with Fëanor every day! He's very protective and loyal to his brothers, especially Maedhros.
Oh my, that text conversation at the start had me giggling. Poor Maglor! I desperately want to see him happy too.
Tyelko and Aredhel are so similar - overthinking and overcomplicating everything. Guys, it doesn't have to be - you're perfect together! I did like Tyelko meeting Fingolfin, especially that Tyelko noted some similarity between Fingolfin and his father. I also couldn't help grinning when Tyelko totally disarmed Fingolfin's frostiness, just by being himself. And Turgon, being the peacemaker again. What a guy.
I love the languid easiness Maedhros and Fingon share now, since Maedhros managed to open up. And Aredhel needs to keep her mitts out of their relationship! But at least Tyelko seems able to put her mind at ease a little.
Gorgeous chapter, Nelya, I really enjoyed all the delicate character dynamics here. It's a big cast so a lot to balance, but you give them all their own individual traits and journeys, and I can't help caring about all of them and wanting it all to work out.
Author's Response: Thanks Narya! Yes poor Maglor and the texts. He's all bluster through since we know how happy he is for Maedhros.
Aredhel and Tyelko are similar. Fiery temperament both of them. Tyelko is a sweetheart--blunt, fiery, brash exterior but a sweetheart underneath all that. And he is quite observant--that's the hunter bit in him I've tried to bring in from canon. Yes he's caught a similarity between his father and Fingolfin and he's seen the humor in it which does a good job at thawing Fingolfin a fair bit!
oh I'm so glad that ease between Fingon and Maedhros is noticeable--I wanted to show that, now that the truth is out and the walls have come down--their comfort with each other and regard for each other can come to the forefront.
Aredhel is a bit of a problem. She's not one to let things go, not when they involve her beloved brother. She's stubborn and headstrong. And outspoken.
thank you for that last comment in particular, Narya--it is a big cast (and only getting bigger as I write new chapters) and trying to give them all their unique points of view and characterisation is important to me. I'm gratified you think I'm managing it! Each new character brought in complicates the story a bit but I've got such strong feelings for them all I want to do them justice!
Maedhros was a such a mess when Fingon finally caught up with him for dinner. Poor thing.
All worry and self recrimination and apologetic. I think this was a good a time as any to come clean to Fingon, especially after the episode with Turgon and also because I think they've reached that part in their relationship where there shouldn't be any more secrets.
Finding out what actually happened to him, though, no wonder he was the way he was. How horrible!
It's so nice to see them able to indulge in each other without any of that other stuff getting in the way. Of course they still have to work on the triggers but I'm sure with time and Fingon's expert understanding and just being that all round wonderful guy, they should be able to gain control of the situation.
Time will tell.
Great chapter! :)
Author's Response: thanks Gabriel! He was a mess. He was ok when he came to his decision and told his brothers but then he had hours to himself to let it spin in his brain and let all his worry and anxiety and guilt to build up again.
What happened was horrible and I tried to keep it as close to canon as I could--abduction, shoulder injury, menace of worse treatment. He blames himself for letting it happen. He hasn't been able to forgive himself for that, even though it was completely not in his control.
yes they needed some time together like this. They've been building up to it but now the barriers are down, the trust is there and they can move to this new level of their relationship without all the mental baggage they both had with it.
I'm glad you love FIngon. I love him so very much myself.
Oh poor Maedhros, reacting like that after falling asleep on Fingon :( as if his day wasn't bad enough! You write him so consistently; again, his automatic reaction is to blame himself. Poor guy.
The explanation is beautifully handled too - lots of subtle, shifting dynamics between them, underpinned by Finno's unswerving faith.
Of course, my favourite part was the end of the chapter ;) just gorgeous, Nelya!
Author's Response: It's what he's been desperately trying to avoid doing, only to be undone by his own comfort with Fingon and how tired and worn out he is. Thank you for the consistent comment--I try very hard to keep him that way and I'm glad it comes through. He is such an automatic self-blamer--he breaks my heart.
It's a long explanation so I'm relieved it came off well for you. It is a lot of back and forth between them but they've both come a long way from where this started as far as trust and Finno's faith in Maedhros is absolute.
the end--yes I decided they needed to make a night of it after going through the hellish day they did. they needed some stress relief and some time to enjoy each other now that the difficult conversation is past them and the barriers are down. Thanks so much, Narya!
Argh, sorry, I am behind...it's been crazy at work since I got back, and I still haven't caught up with what everyone's been posting.
Anyway - I should have known Aredhel would go off the deep end :/ but I love Turgon here, diffusing the situation and understanding that there's more to the incident than first apparent.
Fingolfin's reaction is interesting. It almost feels a little Fëanor-esque, but I suppose if he knows some dark stuff about their past it makes sense that he wouldn't want Maedhros and Tyelko seeing Fingon and Aredhel. I doubt they'll listen if he tells them to put the brakes on, though!
Author's Response: Thank you and No worries!
yes Aredhel is impulsive and incensed right now. She furious at the situation and quite honestly at Fingon too, for what she perceives as passivity and nonchalance in the face of concerning issues. Poor blood and snot covered Turgon ends up being the peacemaker here--the poor guy just wants to go home and wash his face not deal with the haranguing of Aredel and the truculence of Fingon! And Argon is just lost in the mix.
Fingolfin has seen the harsher side of Fëanor. He is being a little like Fëanor here--pushing his own issues into his children's lives but he truly believes he is doing is for the right reasons. I share your doubts on how well either of them will listen to him. Anairë is far more laissez-faire--she knows that past experiences have colored Fingolfin's viewpoint and even if she understands the difficult person that Fëanor is she is open minded enough about it to give it all a chance.
Hi, Nelya! I just can't get enough of this wonderful story of yours.
Wow! Maedhros is not coming off too great in the wake of his outburst. Aredhel is absolutely incensed by it all. And even more so with Fingon's nonchalance.
I have to say, that Aredhel and Tyelko are so beautifully matched in this story. Both hot-headed, brazen and outspoken, but fiercely protective and loving of their family.
I loved reading about Fingolfin and Anaire. And of course finding out a little more about the law suit. It was a surprise to learn Fingolfin and Feanor had disagreements, I don't know why, it seems to be their MO, doesn't it. But that Fingolfin and Anaire were close to them once was a surprise. So this whole thing with the Feanorions may not go down too well with Fingolfin, we'll see I guess.
Can't wait for the next installment! :)
Author's Response: Aw Gabriel thank you so much.
yeah Aredhel is quite riled about the whole thing and FIngon's nonchalance is absolutely infuriating and concerning to her. And yes she and Tyelko are a fiery match. Their protectiveness of their siblings is something quite strong for both of them.
so glad you liked Fingolfin and Anairë--it was fun bringing them into the story and getting to explore their characters a bit. Yes they have a history with Fëanor and Nerdanel, beyond the lawsuit, and this whole thing is giving FIngolfin pause. Hope you like the next chapter too!
I just saw your comment to Gabriel about distinguishing all the different characters, and I wanted to add that this is something you do really well - I particularly loved the twins cheating, and Turgon's calm, measured, accepting reaction. You definitely get a sense of all the different personalities, even when they can't all have a lot of individual "screen time."
PS - I haven't forgotten about your birthday fic! It needs another draft; I am going away on Thursday so will probably take it with me for a final re-write and post when I'm back. I'm sorry it's ended up being so late :(
Author's Response: Thanks so much Narya! I'm so glad I was able to let them be themselves--unique and identifiable, their personalities peeking through the narrative. Take your time! I'm excited to read it whenever you finish it!
Author's Response: Thanks so much Narya! I'm so glad I was able to let them be themselves--unique and identifiable, their personalities peeking through the narrative. Take your time! I'm excited to read it whenever you finish it!
Nelya! I loved this chapter! So much fun to read!
I loved how embarrassed Fingon was with his choice of epesse for Maedhros. So adorable.
I absolutely loved how everyone was in this chapter. Especially Argon, loved how you included him.
Thoroughly enjoyed the rugby game, being a fan myself, especially when it came to Aredhel and Tyelko. They had me in stitches at Tyelko's antics and how anyone with the ball was systematically pelted with snow. lol. It seemed like so much fun.
But Mae's automatic response to Turgon pinning his arms...I did not see that coming and I liked the fact that I didn't. Fingon seemed pretty shocked though, probably because he thought they had covered all the bases, but it was quite clear to him, they had not. And it also seemed that Fingon wasn't quite sure how to react either. You could see he wanted to comfort Mae but hesitant about how to go about it, worried that he might be crowding Maedhros or maybe it was something else that had him holding back. Mae probably thought he had it all under control, and poor Turgon, you could well imagine that Maedhros would be quite a force to reckon with if ever he was forced into a defensive position, as we could well see.
He was so shocked and apologetic, I really felt for him. It was so good that he determined not give up this time. Way to go Fingon! :)
This really is an awesome story and you tell it so well.
Author's Response: Thank you Gabriel! Fun and drama in this chapter.
Embarrassed Fingon is adorable and I really love getting him that way!
It was challenging to have this many characters in this chapter and try to give each of them a bit of individuality and voice here--hope I managed it. The game is so Feanorian to me and pure Tyelko in its roughness and exuberance. I have to say I love how the twins are such cheats.
Oh I am so glad you didn't see that coming and that I pulled it off as a complete surprise! It was bound to happen sometimes and couldn't have happened in a worse situation for Maedhros--in public, to someone he doesn't know so well, in front of so many people and when he had valiantly tried to control for it and his brothers had completely missed the hints. Fingon wasn't sure how to react as you say--he was torn between concern for his brother and attempting to comfort Maedhros because he KNOWS how this occurrence will affect Maedhros. He sense that. And Mae is completely beside himself at what has happened but there is a core of strength in him and also the influence of Fingon's love for him--he can rationalize things in a better way and strive to keep going with this relationship because it means SO MUCH to him and MATTERS to him.
Thank you so much for your encouraging words!! So glad you like this fic!
This is so lovely, Nelya :) their gentle, languid awakening is so tender and gorgeous, and then the humour with the nicknames.
That game sounds like fun :D it reminds me of when my cousins, siblings and I were younger, and we used to play this weird mashup of football and hockey - the girls having hockey sticks made up for the boys being bigger!
Ahh, no :( poor Turgon! And poor Maedhros too - but I'm so glad he's still going to keep to his plans with Fingon, and that by the end he's able to joke a little about what happens.
I love how sensitively you explore the dynamics of Maedhros's experience, the impact it has on him, and the wonderful ways his family and friends (and Fingon of course) support him. Really heartwarming to read.
Author's Response: Thank you Narya! They have reached that lovely, languid stage of togetherness, where the world just shrinks down to the two of them. They deserve these moments.
It is a truly riotous game, no holds barred, mashup of any roughhousing you can imagine. Feanorian at its finest.
Maedhros was trying to control the team makeup without calling too much attention to his issues. His brothers failed to take the hint and poor Turgon was in the wrong place at the wrong time. I think his nose is painful but the emotional toll on Maedhros is as steep. This is exactly what he has been fearing all these nights with Fingon and for it to happen here, in the midst of fun, so publicly, is horrific for him. But there has already been a considerable effect of his relationship with Fingon that he doesn't do what he usually would do and retreat--Fingon has wormed his way into his heart and this is worth fighting for, worth struggling for. I enjoyed writing how absolutely gutted his brothers were and how they were preparing of the worst and to kick him in the arse if he behaved as usual. They just deflated with relief when he decided to keep going with it, rather than retreating.
Thank you so much of your last sentence!! I do try to explore the dynamics of his issues and how they affect his day to day life and relationships with those around him. I'm so glad you are enjoying this!
Yay, another chapter!
I love the different ways Maglor and Tyelko tease Maedhros :-D I wish poor Maglor could find someone, though. Maybe it would help his creative block!
Happy to see more Tyelko/Aredhel, even if it's just texting - I've missed them!
I like how easy Fingon is in Maglor's company as well, now. He is fitting intl the family perfectly, and I'm glad Maglor likes him and recognises how much good he's doing Maedhros. And the end of the chapter... *melts* Maedhros finally said it! Yay!!!
Author's Response: Those boys do love to tease Maedhros--lovingly tease him because you can tell they are basically grinning from ear to ear at seeing their brother happy. They are grateful for his happiness and they have certainly taken Fingon in as a result.
Maglor is clamoring to get his story told--it will come in time but he needs to be patient with me awhile longer. I have plans for him too ;-)
There will be more Tyelko and Aredhel ahead.
and yes! He finally said it--not when Fingon could hear it but still progress!
Oh Nelya! I'm really sorry I misinterpreted that part of the chapter. Don't want to make you feel you have written it as such.
I think it all had to do with the PJ's and the fact that he seemed to wake up a bit once in bed. It just appeared he wanted to be with Mae so much that it looked like he had been faking drowsiness.Thus Mae steered him to bed.
So sorry if it wasn't intended. :/
Author's Response: No worries Gabriel!! It was excellent feedback that I really needed to hear. It wasn't the impression I intended but it's important that I know it can come off that way to readers who aren't in my head; that knowing what I intended may not have been adequately communicated. That's something for me to be aware of as a writer--there are offscreen moments and thought processes that I know the characters go through but the reader doesn't get that opportunity. My job is to communicate that, even if it's off screen. So thank you for making me look at that from a different viewpoint--poor Maglor's viewpoint! This is valuable feedback that I need to incorporate into my writing and characterisations. I appreciate it and sorry if I seemed at all unappreciative--I just felt bad to have left that avenue of interpretation open because Fingon isn't that type of guy at all. I need to think of the nuances more. Thank you so much for noticing that and reading it so deeply.
I loved this chapter, Nelya!
I love your Tyelko. I think I've said that before somewhere. He made me laugh, such a loveable character. He suits this persona so much. In fact this is exactly how I see him, brash, full of cheek, wears his heart on his sleeve, a real tease and is not afraid to speak his mind.
How, he's fallen in love and can't quite believe he's done so. It's so adorable, he's adorable. lol
And Maglor-you just want to give him a big hug-he's such a sad figure. It becomes more evident as the story progresses. How completely lonely he truly is, throwing himself into his music. Just Maedhros asking after him; his face lights up.
What was Tyelko talking about, when he mentioned the last girl Maglor dated, messed with his head or something to that affect. What on earth did she do to him?
I also felt sorry for Maglor once you find out that Fingon faked his drowsiness as a ruse to get Maedhros into bed. It was just how Maglor lapped up the company, that made me feel for him. Nothing at all against Maedhros and Fingon wanting to finish where they left off previous. I just don't think either of them realized how much Maglor appreciated their companionship and interest in his work. I guess because Maglor tends to shut himself off from everyone, others believe he enjoys being alone, but it's quite the opposite.
Again, loved it! :)
Author's Response: Thanks Gabriel! I'm glad you are such a fan of Tyelko. I've probably mentioned it before but I love to write him so much--he's such fun and he just takes the story where he wants it to go.
But I am so sad that Fingon came off as faking it here! That was never my intention or his! He truly got so warm and snuggly and had overeaten so drowsiness just took over. Partly lazy about pajamas because he was sleepy and partly a new comfort with the intimacy he has with Maedhros now. It was never intended as a way to get away from Maglor. But he got a bit of second wind upstairs and hadn't fallen asleep yet when Maedhros climbed into bed and things progressed--he's been waiting a long time for this. I feel bad if I've written it to seem that he was faking it. :-(
Maglor is lonely. His brothers are good companions but he has had some tough luck on relationships and ended up a bit cynical. Both brothers being in the throes of romance is a bit overwhelming and irritating, even though he is happy for them he can't help being a bit jealous. He's nudging me to tell his story and it will come, in time.
Argh, Nelya, I've just had to apologise to ziggy for my slow reviewing, and have realised I have missed one of your chapters too! I'm so sorry, blame TRSB!
I love love love that Feanor has a bottle of Scotch kicking around! In my head canon Maglor is a whisky drinker; it must run in the family ;)
Fingon handled the nightmare so beautifully - what a guy! And that ending - well, finally ;-)
I love seeing their trust deepen, and how they're starting to plan for the future. It's great to see the two of them getting what they deserve :-)
Author's Response: Thanks Narya! TRSB is a huge undertaking! So excited you are moderating it though!
Yes Scotch seemed the appropriate choice!
Fingon did as he was told--it was dreadfully hard, harder than he expected, to just sit by and watch. But he knew that's what he had to do, for his own safety and to maintain Maedhros trust. And horribly hard as it was at least it's happened finally. He now knows what to expect, the trust is building and he can let himself move further into their physical relationship without the fear of this hanging over him. It's a good bit of progress--in a lot of ways ;-)
New chapter posting soon!
Fingon is right, the last thing Maedhros needs is to become dependent on alcohol on top of all the baggage he has to deal with.
When Maedhros finally fell to sleep and began having a nightmare I half expected him to be flailing about and when he opened his eyes and saw Fingon sitting there legs up under his chin against the headboard I honestly thought he wouldn't recognize him. Such a relief he did.
I love how they fell asleep in each others arms. And as a reward, for making it through their first night with nightmares, finally made love. Yay! Its been a long time in the coming, but I think Maedhros is realizing this idea of Fingon's is actually working and he can relax and enjoy the time they have together. I'm really intrigued as to what happened to Maedhros at the hands of Morgoth Industries. My god! It must have been horrendous for him to be so affected.
Great chapter! Nelya!
And you tell Cinemairon, beautiful artwork! :)
Author's Response: Hi Gabriel! Thanks for this! Yes the alcohol really needs to be a no go--it has quite the opposite effect and I think the boys need to treat it as a trigger. He had an episode in the hotel when he was at the wedding and again tonight. And the night at Fingon's apartment. It is not a coincidence anymore. They are effectively finding triggers at least and may be able to mitigate their effect if they are aware of them.
this was a terribly hard night for Fingon. He did what he was supposed to do but he felt so helpless and so paralyzed and so very upset for Maedhros. But it did prove that Fingon has a point and this plan has the potential to work for them, as long as they stay the course.
more will be revealed in future chapters!
and yes cinema iron's art for this has been just lovely!
I absolutely love Tyelko in this chapter! He had me laughing with his lightning quips. :D
*"Maybe you should have left a note," Tyelko said. Something like, 'Humping my boyfriend on sofa - steer clear of the family room,' you know?" He smirked at them both. "Maybe put up a 'Men at work' sign on the back door," he said, Then his eyes lit up."Or one of those 'Speed Hump' signs like they have a Cuivienen. That's fucking perfect! Shit. I've got to steal one of those from campus and leave it in the garage for you." He threw his head back as he laughed.*
*"You sure you aren't in the way here, Tyelko?"
"You have no idea," Tyelko said soberly. "I walked in on these two getting it on. The image is now burned in on my retinas."* That just cracked me up, Nelya! It was so good to have a laugh, today.
Tyelko is truly the comic relief.
But on a more sober note. Dear, Maglor happy to for his brothers' and how they have found wonderful companions, but doesn't like how things at home have changed and secretly wishes he could find that special someone too. But believes he is not as confident in that area. Oh! Maglor! Is there any hope for our beautiful, grumpy, singer, Nelya? I hope so. Don't like seeing Maglor depressed.
Well, will Maedhros succumb to the nightmares and will Fingon be safe? You have me biting my nails in anticipation. Great chapter! :)
Author's Response: Thanks so much Gabriel! Tyelko is hilarious, isn't he? I can't tell you how much fun I have writing him. He insinuates himself into the storyline and then just spreads out and makes himself comfortable. He's so funny and irreverent and just makes me smile. He is comic relief and I love him for it.
Maglor keeps hinting about some relationship issues but he has not chosen to divulge the whole story. He just keeps making vague commentary of a sad kind. There is hope for him though, I promise you.
tyelko is certainly getting more comfortable with FIngon around, even if Maglor feels his comfortable home life is a bit discombobulated. But FIngon really seems to be fitting right in with these guys (which is fairly canonical) and he is trying hard to get to know the brothers and be a part of their home without being too obtrusive or disruptive. more coming soon. . .
Sorry Nelya, I meant to ask...when is your birthday? (It might have gone by already, apologies if so.)
Author's Response: May 26! Thanks for asking!
Aaah, I'm so late, I'm sorry! Life has been crazy.
Anyway. I love that Fingon buys Spamalot tickets for Maedhros - and the little touch of his heart beating faster when he realises he's so confident in their future is really gorgeous. It gave me the warm fuzzies.
I hated what they did with the Angband Industrial Park and that Thangorodrim skyscraper is an eyesore—who puts a skyscraper out in the middle of nowhere?
That's neat too, I imagine Thangorodrim would be an eyesore. And there it is again - the tension in Maedhros. I'm glad Fingon is able to cajole him into talking it through this time, so it doesn't spoil their evening.
And Fingon waking up in Maedhros's arms is adorable!
Author's Response: Thanks Narya! Glad you liked the Spamalot bit and Fingon's dawning realisation of confidence in this relationship.
I truly wanted the Gotthaur buildings to be ugly, clashing and disrupting the skyline, not enhancing it.
Maedhros has wanted Fingon in his arms like this. Even if he couldn't sleep he at least had Fingon waking up in his arms, as he'd envisioned in his imagination.
So sorry about the wait. :/
It is so great to see Maedhros sharing a bit of his Grandfather's death and the aftermath, his feelings as well on the subject. It shows how far these two have come in their relationship, if Maedhros feels its okay to divulge a little information. And I'm sure a lot of that has to do with Fingon's honesty with his own problems and the reassurances and encouragement in the bedroom, as well, of course Fingon being an all-round good guy and an easy person to talk to.
I know Fingon brought it up, [Gorthaur and Associates] but it's good to have Maedhros unloading a little. he needs to, he needs this and the support.
I loved how they spent the night in each other's arms. Yay! And so romantic.
Author's Response: Thanks Gabriel! Yes Fingon is managing to make Maedhros comfortable and supported so he is being a little less reticent, bit by bit. There is a feeling of safeness with Fingon, a sense of security and acceptance that is gradually bridging those walls Maedhros has constructed around himself.
And Maedhros got his wish of Fingon in his arms.
*"It's worth it, if kids have a better Christmas because their parents bought them books on sale at my store. Next year I'd like to team up with some local schools and shelters and give books away for free."*
*Fingon really didn't need any more reasons to love Maedhros- he was well on his way to being completely in love with him already.*
Awww! Maedhros can't possibly do anything further to earn those wings of his. What a sweetheart.
Oh my gosh! Tyelko is incorrigible! lol. I love that he's not afraid to broach sexual matters with his brother and tease him about it in the process.
Well, they've finally made some ground on their relationship, which is good. Finally spent a night together, although poor Maedhros spent it staring at the ceiling. I understand his reticence, his fear. Baby steps is the only way to go.
Looking forward to the next chapter, Nelya! :)
Author's Response: Thanks Gabriel! Maedhros is so sensitive and thoughtful, isn't he?
Tyelko is the best--I can just picture the whole scene--Maedhros all flushed and Tyelko just knowing that being profane and funny would make Maedhros laugh and relax a bit.
Baby steps--but at least he's trying, right?
"You a runner then?"
"I was," Maedhros said, his voice a little brusque. "I prefer the treadmill though. When I run, that is."
It was only a momentary shift but Fingon noticed. There were times when Maedhros withdrew a little--certain topics, certain situations. Now that he knew about the nightmares Fingon wondered if it was all related. The parking quirks. His grandfather. The distant look that came over him in the middle of a conversation. The running comment just now. They seemed disparate enough topics but his response to them all was similar.
Ah, Fingon is beginning to put the pieces together. I'm so glad that Maedhros trusts him to try staying over!
"It's worth it, if kids have a better Christmas because their parents bought them books on sale at my store. Next year I'd like to team up with some local schools and shelters and give books away for free."
He is just so lovely. If he wasn't so perfect with Fingon I would want to steal him :P
You write the way they gradually fall deeper and deeper for each other so beautifully and delicately - and I loved Maglor and Tyelko's different reactions to Maedhros bringing Fingon home. Tyelko's bawdy approach made me gigglesnort.
Fingon is so understanding and perceptive, realising that even a slight touch might damage Maedhros's trust in him. But it sounds like they're making progress, which makes me happy :) thank you for another fab chapter, Nelya. These boys brighten up my week.
Author's Response: Thank Narya! Yes Fngon is finally seeing a pattern and working out that things are linked. He's becoming more perceptive as he's focusing more on Maedhros now that he's confident in his feelings and done with his semester stress. Maedhros is just a dear, isn't he? I'm thrilled you are finding their slow burn realistic! It means so much for me to know that it's working, the way I am having their feelings progress.
Tyelko makes me laugh much of the time that I am writing him.
And you've got it right--Fingon is being very careful. He's made loads of progress but Mae is a bit of a minefield so he treading lightly and trying to follow the guidelines. And he likely doesn't even realize that his simple ability and willingness to fall asleep has made a huge difference to Maedhros.